#but i just found out i’ve lost like 10 lbs and im so proud of myself and i want to tell someone

[eversncenewyork]

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#okay #body image tw #i never got like pro-ana social media before like how could people talk abt it encouragingly and like commune abt it #but i just found out i’ve lost like 10 lbs and im so proud of myself and i want to tell someone #but my stupid stinkin methods are rooted in mental illness and so if i tell anyone #it’s not a ‘good for you’ but a ‘im telling your therapist’ and in grumpy abt it #but i needed ti say it somewhere or i was gonna go nuts #and before anyone gets worried abt me: it’s rly not that bad i swear i am getting nutrients #i’ve done way way worse #it just feels so nice to be proud of my body #bc this time i’m exercising consistently and it’s so cool to see the changes #i know everything i’m doing is rooted in my ed but i think it will grow into actually just being healthier #i know i sound delusional but i swear i mean it #i just….was shocked to see the scale where it was like i would’ve been so happy with half of that #:) #AND i only weighed myself bc i’m at my mom’s house and i shall never own a scale so it’s just a lil check in #that’s all