#but iraqi culture is pretty big about envy. think most arabs would get me on this

[elytrafemme]

you know, i don’t consider myself a very jealous person. i grew up in an environment where envy was like a form of magic, and i learned from that, and i don’t try to envy people because part of me does see that as wicked. 

this being said, i would be a lot more successful at not being a jealous partner if i stopped getting put into fucking ambiguous sapphic polycule situations, how is this even probable at this point

#nightmare.personal #local girl thought too hard about the fact that her girlfriend & best friend (ex & ex-crush of current gf) are going to school #like a few streets apart from one another while i am going to school very far away #i've been thinking a lot though of ways to make me harder to get rid of #to like sink into people's lives as something they NEED y'know #and if i double down on that maybe it'll be fine but as it stands like #well. i don't know. for what it's worth i do think i'm a very necessary piece to keeping my friend group going #as a collective. but not in individual relationships. and that's part of the issue #also i realize this retroactively but i'm not christian this isn't a 7 deadly sins gig if you're curious #but iraqi culture is pretty big about envy. think most arabs would get me on this