#but it was like ok brandon is such an introvert with good taste some insecurity and similar music taste to mine we could just be buddies

[outforflowers]

Funny thing my blog has been called outforflowers for years now because of a Hermann Hesse quote (see below) and only now I feel like I found the Flowers I was out for (pun intended).

It is just like "oh, you've been in my garden for more than a decade and I've only now truly noticed you and admire your beauty to the level you deserve".

"Because the world is so full of death and horror, I try again and again to console my heart and pick the flowers that grow in the midst of hell."

#personal #blablabla #outforflowers #i've always liked the killers a lot and they were a big part of my youth #but it was like ok brandon is such an introvert with good taste some insecurity and similar music taste to mine we could just be buddies #when i was young watching mtv and seeing the music videos i was like there is something in his eyes he knows things he gets it #specially thinking of read my mind tranquilize and don't shoot me santa #the thing with santa is very interesting because my surname pays homage to santa #i could go on forever here #i realized how only the young lyrics perfectly fit some of my personal trauma and its scary #seeing them live brought me back from the dead and I didn't even realize I had died inside #it helped me cope with my father's death and with all that happened during the pandemic #it might sound silly now but its what i have been feeling #comparing the Hesse quote we can consider Vegas as some sort of hell for being sin city lol and Flowers being from there hahaha im stoping