#but it's all been with mutuals who play characters i ship with kotori

[wcnderfulrush]

When you make yourself sad by realizing that you have only one actual idoltwt mutual, and that goes into realizing why you’re so iffy over all your idol muses since no one really cares about those in the rpc anymore, and then you say you’re cool but your brain goes “kotori’s still been around for the past couple of years just through ship threads alone, right?” and you want to say no but then you remember all your idol rpc mutuals are nonexistent now, and now you’re debating putting her on your multi because you know your brain is right but you’ll be damned if you ever get rid of her as a muse because you love her far too much.

#;big bubble blowing baby! ( ooc ) #( will she actually get moved to the multi? debatable #it'd certainly help me not forget her as much myself #since even though rpc is kind of dead #idol rpc is Truly Dead #like who is still alive out there?? hello??? echo???? #kotori is one of the muses i'd never get rid of honestly #since i love her / the memories i made through her throughout the years too much #but literally for the past couple years i've rped nothing but ship threads #and i love all of them!!! #and they aren't all inherently shippy to be fair #but it's all been with mutuals who play characters i ship with kotori #and all the threads have been with those characters #and most of those threads have been super soft or got dropped halfway b/c life made me lose motivation for it #i think i have kind of the problem my friend wars has #except i can rp mundane slice-of-life and love it #but just the pull of even just a bit more complexity with diantha / prunella #even just a bit more action with vane / vikala #other muses in my multi could fit into both of those categories besides the idol ones #i also know part of it is a debate i literally just had with myself #because i have verses with those idol muses #and I think they could be really engaging and complex and contain good movement in general #but when i was debating making a starter here; looking over all the verses i had for kotori #would they be interesting for anyone else? #would anyone actually interact with that? #rp and writing are hobbies but also two different things #and i could write little fanfics for all the aus i've thought up whenever i want to and be satisfied #but i don't think anyone would actually interact with them in an rp setting; where interaction is basically one of the main points #so even with all these things i think are interesting that i made for those muses #everyone will opt for the muse they like best