#but like. mm. triggers are fucking weired

[violexides]

discovering your triggers/squicks is such a strange process. like i was just downstairs eating oranges and realized that one of the topics i had thought i liked writing about and exploring is actually just something triggering but my brain entirely diverted that, so instead i spent like ages thinking that these tiny things were what upset me when it was actually really big picture.

now, the follow up conundrum: how does one escape a concept that is constantly embedded into their life when it isn’t exactly something one could just tag or anything?

#personal #vent #i have 0 plans on ever disclosing my triggers online #because why would i do that #unless it's like with close friends #but just. hm. this explains a LOT now. #but like. mm. triggers are fucking weired #some are like small passing things or phrases and shit like that #but then you have more like. larger scale shit i guess??? #not even like saying that you're triggered by your trauma just #triggered by phrarses but once you total them up it's just this universal thing #hm. it's just kind of interesting if i zone out hard enough how that sort of unfolds #anyway. this will probably get deleted later if i can remember