#but no lets go from absolutely miserable and hopeless but uncaring to hyper anxious mess that gets overwhelmed

[tortademaracuya]

#i think like. the worst part of my mood lately #is that i feel so low that not only i have no energy or motivation but i just dont care #i cant keep working on this stupid code because i cant bring myself to care about it. i dont see the point. its useless #but i also know that i will go back to suddenly caring in like 3 hours and im going to have a horrible time :) #it would be easier if at least i stayed on a single mindset :) #but no lets go from absolutely miserable and hopeless but uncaring to hyper anxious mess that gets overwhelmed #maybe i need to touch more grass but now im also starting to get anxious about being outside too...yay..... #dont even get me started on actually talking to another person face to face #haunted.txt #had to go out today and even though it was fun i wanted to explode the second i was alone again #i cant stop overthinking everything everyone says or does...its so tiring #and it feels even more lonely in the end. being surrounded by too many people and feeling like an outsider or #seeing a single person and feeling like you are bothering them #not like i have seen anyone. i would have to go out or take breaks or even reach out for that aha. ahahaahaha #lets see how many more places i can quietly disappear from because i cant be bothered #its all too much and even though at first is a relief its like i need to cut out more and more communication little by little