#but now sing more than ever even tho I h8 my voice

[belladonnafleur]

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#grrrrr #not the random ass burst of inspiration that I got #like I genuinely tell myself that im not good at anything bc theres always someone better #but I want to do !! so many things !! #I want to sing more! and act! and play violin! #but now sing more than ever even tho I h8 my voice #bc auditions for musical come soon and I want to be in it #im also just watching a vid of a show that my crush was in and shes so cute!! and scrungly!! #I hate her but it feels like I love her #also I don't think anything is going to go anywhere w new girl #I just want my jacket back lol #I have a paper due tues but bc I forgored I thought it was due thurs #so uh #I have less time than I thought #and a final tomorrow #and an assignment tomorrow night #im doing so good at budgeting my time /s #I don't want to think about school or moving out!! I just want my crush!! #I want her dumb hair and her dumb hands and her dumbass #I want her!!!!! #this is bad for me #my stocks are low #I want her I want to get married and run away #I haven't left my room all day #I see my therapist tomorrow so at least I get to vent all of this out #I go cazy #I want to marry Her (crush) #even tho I know SHE DOESN'T want me #and my every interaction w her solidifies that she doesn't want me #and nothing is going to come out of interactions w girl im sorta friends w/seeing rn