#but starting w ifnt in late 2014/early 2015!!! 2 yr cycles without fail!!

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#okie srry for the spam i thinkk im done;; #just had a lot of thoughts ;; 3 years isnt a short time at all !! #for me especially?? i tend to ride in waves of 2 years for groups that end up becoming really improtant to me;; #i mean when i frst started it ws much quickewr like #snsd apink hello venus were all groups super important to me #those three groups i stanned in p close succession ;; #but starting w ifnt in late 2014/early 2015!!! 2 yr cycles without fail!! #i mean romeo too kinda;; were 2015!! #and then svt/broduce was 2017 (and broduce carried me out so. far. in terms of who i follow in kpop these days) #and vrvr in 2019!! #in terms fo groups at least and well after 2019...nothing happened in 2021 in terms of finding a new group #instead my feelings for ys grow stronger by the day?? its been 3 years??? this is so diff and so new and so special to me #like im still fond of all those groups but in many ways theyre almost like 'groups i used to know' ;; #i still have incredible fondness and nostalgia for them all but ;; u know the feeling when its kinda passed;; #but for ys its just been growing stronger by the day for three!! years #when i found youngk i didnt think id be as down bad for anyone as i was for him #i was wrong i got WORSE w yongseung #and i thin k youngk only lasted abt 2 years;;; again that 2 year cycle darling im so sorry;; #and part of the 2 years was me in denial that i prob double ulted at some point but;; #its undeniable that i dont ult youngk anymore which ;; kinda hurts i miss those rot feelings but!! #it is what it is and im glad for the experience;; still v fond of him!! #and he is in my untouchable line so!! #ANYWYAS just to say that ;;; emotional time for me just thinking of how long its been how far ive come since then etcetc #like ys is also such a diff bias for me bc like...i know we dont know each other but he genuinely does.. #make me want to be a better person...ive tried to introduce positive changes to my life thanks to HIM #and its kinda silly its bc of a kpop boy but u know what if it works it works!! #whatever the reasoning is as silly as it is if ys is what gets me to want implement more positive habits in my life #so be it!!!! eventually they'll turn into habits for myself #and i'll forget the original cuase bc i want to do it myself #anyways!!