#but thats not really on the table atm. but it’s still smth holding me down

[mocksyoucondescendingly]

rrrrrrrrr hell feeling

#not hell feeling. weird feeling badness… #i don’t know how to be polyamorous #i dont think i quite get how i can achieve that kind of relationship with others #like! how do you bring that up!! especially to a non queer individual #sure okay i’m in love with this one guy. and i think an open/poly relationship would be a good fit for us #but thats not really on the table atm. but it’s still smth holding me down #and then there’s this gorgeous woman.but she’s like. cishet. and she’s already got some young children #and im like. i want to enter a partnership with you. but i don’t know how to explain my feelings #because they’ll always belong to him. but they also belong to her. and… #idk. if it’s this easy for these two people to tumble into my life and mess me up inside #then there will probably be more before i’m even 50 #and then i start feeling so conflicted