#buuuut sadly most of this is not in the actual text. which suuuuuuuucks bc its so interestinggggg in the context of their societyyyyyy

[yuridovewing]

hollyleaf is a character that i still really love but also makes me go "oh cmon you couldnt have made a better ending for her?

#i can fix her. in my rewrite i can fix her #the concept of a character who was so devoted to the code (which has very horrifying rules included in it) #suddenly discovering that her very existence is violation to the code on not just one but two major accounts #and like before then she'd enforced it on other people and lectured about it and held it so close to how she lived her life #only to have it fall apart and with it goes her mental stability #and not only that she kills a guy. her own clanmate. sheerly to save her and her brothers' skins #not honorably or in battle or anything. and she does this before she even learns who her parents are? #so thats the real start of it. what if she like... HEAVILY regret killing ashfur after she learned #because ''he was right to expose us. we are a sin that must be corrected. he was only looking out for the clan and i killed him for it'' #and it just makes her spiral worse and worse and worse #and she tries to kill leafpool because shes so far gone at that point that whats one more death? at least this codebreaker would deserve it #buuuut sadly most of this is not in the actual text. which suuuuuuuucks bc its so interestinggggg in the context of their societyyyyyy #in my au she lives but i would absolutely have her reconcile with leafpool #her time away in the tunnels would be her being forced to reflect on everything #and specifically being away from clan life just shifts her perspective #and itd take a second but she would reconcile with her bio mom #i think leafpool would forgive her because it's in her nature but like we gotta SEE that happen #idk. hollyleaf. shes fucked up. shes interesting to me #i can fix her.