#came around i realized he wasnt my real dad and thats nbd

[galacticchaosminion]

im so lost and confused and sad and so tired i cant keep my eyes open and idk what to do. i’d go nuts without thomas tbh.

#the bad news literally has me so drained #i fcking hate him tbh and i thought things were finally doing good #for a long time i thought he was my real dad but not too long after this other guy #came around i realized he wasnt my real dad and thats nbd #but like im not around my real one and i havent for many many years and now #the only one i got isnt around because he fucked up AGAIN and all i can think about #are the good years i thought he cared and the happy times that were probably fake #and all i cant think about are the really abusive and awful things he would say to me #and i kinda wanna hang up dark blue fairy lights in my room and fall asleep under #my pride flag with someone and calm down for a while #because this is the second time he cheated on mom and the first one was seven #years ago and between those seven years he has always said bad things to me #that still get me down and honestly he is fucking scum and i hate him #we were finally getting along but he fukin ruined it and idc what happens to him #anymore and i hope stays away #idc if i dont really have a dad now... ive been #out of the house for two years now and havent seen him so maybe the rest of #my life wont be so bad......