#cant help being a gumi kinnie i guess U_U

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been real cloudy here, without any rain

#halfway thru this i realized i was drawing myself and not gumi and i had to take a moment and re-gumi-fy the drawing #cant help being a gumi kinnie i guess U_U #dnoodles #vocaloid #i guess? idk i dont think a lot of people will reblog this. i actually kinda hope not. #hello dear followers #yea wow i have um. not been drawing at all lately. #not even simple doodles. i couldnt even pick up a pen. #so i sat down. turned on my favorite music. and drew what i wanted. #not what i wanted to see as the result #but what i wanted to let out of my system. #i dont really care if this looks good or bad. i dont care how messy the lines are. i dont care about the colors or the background #i just wanted to have a good time drawing again. and have a good time i did :) #i have a big drawing ahead of me i need to do. that i Want to do. #im scared of it not turning out good. especially since its for a friend. especially since im being paid for it. #but. im gonna let myself enjoy it. sink into the feeling and let the pen move on its own. indulge in the joy of creation. #i missed art. i missed posting. #sometimes i think about how i was able to crank out so many drawings in high school. #not without extreme determent to my grades of course. but still. i was drawing So Much. and i utterly loved it. #i still wish i could go back to that. perhaps i will. perhaps i wont. #but i want to let that wish go away. and. i guess. start a new chapter. #reinvent my relationship with art. #its going to be bad. its going to be messy. its going to hurt your eyes. and its going to be fun. #WOW okay that was an essay. thank you for reading. #im gonna go eat something and. actually get back to drawing. hehe