#casper lore dump

[daisychainsandbowties]

how did you figure out that you’re nonbinary and that you specifically use they/them pronouns? /genq

oh okay so figuring out gender was a ‘casper is stupid for 17 entire years’ situation.

i basically came out of the cradle insisting that it was cringe and terrible of my parents to think of me as a girl. i was, emphatically, a Pokémon obsessed little guy since i could form entire sentences. but it was 2002, and frankly i was more concerned with how far i could spit and collecting spiders off the bushes to be worried about it. my parents (bless) were 100% cool with getting my clothes in the boys section & letting me do whatever i wanted (except get ice cream from the ice cream van every day. their one and only instance of homophobia 😔) so i didn’t really suffer, especially, beyond scowling at people in school when they dared to refer to me. 

it was pretty clear to me when i was 11 that having a cursed body was, indeed, going to be a curse. not worth mentioning how terrible and evil 11-14 was for me physically, tho to be fair i also took up swordfighting then so swings and roundabouts.

but yeah, around when i was 9 i knew there was a huge massive problem but then my mom got cancer (multiple myeloma) and… yeah gender crisis took a backseat while we watched her almost die about three times (pulmonory embolism, stem-cell transplant, getting shingles with no immune system bc chemo). my grandmother looked after me while Hospital.

unhelpful to the anti-trans-kids-existing demons bc she was also like intensely indulgent of my refusal to wear anything but my brazil football jersey. she let me eat nothing but artificial cheese slices put on a single slice of white bread and then microwaved because i had the massive trump card of not being allowed to see my mother for almost six months. i think she was grateful that i seemed to find the whole situation too serious to cry over. my best friend was a boy & he was pretty willing to be like ‘ok cool. ur not a girl. can we go on the trampoline?’ 

& then, when things calmed down & i was about 16/17, i had come out as gay (good for me) about two years before & then i realised i was oh fuck A Bit More Complicated than that i spent a while agonising over it. really a long walks on the beach pondering my gay ass type deal.

but then, just when i was kind of starting to vibe with being enby, I got really really sick, which lasted aboooout 5/6 years where it was just an old school platforming game but titled ‘casper tries not to die while trying to get a degree & two masters’). very do not pass go do not collect 200 of the universe to Do That. but hey. 

so it was around Pandemic when i finally got the brainspace to actually think, & i realised that i was definitely trans, probably nonbinary. i experimented for a while with different pronouns. realised my ‘dumbass nickname everyone has to call me’ was my ACTUAL NAME (never underestimate my stupidity and ignorance) & yeah at first i was thinking of going the hormones path (do not ever please god don’t get me started on how hard that is in this stupid bastard country. 5 years waiting period, on average. have to get diagnosed formally by a team of psychiatrists with what is characterised as a ‘mental illness’. have to ‘live’ - as Some Fucker sees it - as your ‘chosen’ gender for like two years AND be out to basically everybody - realistic and safe i say sarcastically i say while looking into the camera like i'm on the office - oh look i got started. anyway. bullshittery)

but eventually i realised huh nope i just wanted top surgery (same fucking deal with the health service tho) & for people to use they/them generally (i am not too fussed w/ pronouns for myself tho. like, a lot of my friends use he/him because frankly i deserve it most of the time with the himbo behaviour. professionally i insist on they/them for consistency. i get congnitive dissonance with she/her as in i get a weird shock & want to laugh & wonder who the fuck they’re talking about for a sec before i realise it’s me. but like, miffed too much i am not).

also gender is a big pendulum for me it’s an elliptic orbit sometimes for a few weeks i’m like a feminine guy and other times i feel like a masculine gay & sometimes i feel like the autism creature (bc i AM an autism creature, always). 

but i have, essentially, felt nonbinary always. trust me i have a pic of blue-eyed blond 5y/o me sitting on my bed in my Pokemon-themed room wearing a Manchester United jersey and holding my PS2 controller in my hands with a profoundly vacant and himboish expression on my face. it did fully take me 17 whole years to have my ‘oh’ moment about it, but a lot of that was profoundly indulgent parents who were you can’t even imagine how determined to not raise me the way they were raised - which meant, apparently, that if i wanted to be a spider-collecting, bug obsessed pokémon-fixated little guy who kept snapping branches off the bamboo and fashioning makeshift swords out of them - well then that was the creature they’d send to school every day. 

i think the tldr here is: casper stupid. gender a concept. 

#anon #'gender' i don't know her #casper lore dump

[bcneheaded]

HELLOOO good afternoon <3 a kind of sort of half assed doodle dump for yall on this fine saturday (bc i was goin through old stuff trying to look for a particular drawing so therefore ! a handful of miscellaneous yet related to this blog ones). kinda long?? maybe? apologies

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puts a handful of Aether into ur hands <3 this is !! eros' ex lover (also primedorial god of light, & the personification of the air in which the gods breathe (shes a fucking asshole to him now fdfsDSFS) pls my god dont look too hard, these are so fucking old LMAO vv

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vv ghJFDJGD OLD DOODLE PLAYING W THE IDEA THAT HE NEVER SWEARS LMAO vv

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HAZEL AND ARTIE !! old snippet of a doodle/comic of when! she finally takes off her mask and lets him see her eyes!! she has Soul Eyes .... and what I mean by that is like she just has.... so many colors in there. vv

vv idk i think i shared this wip last time of The Tailor but here the mans is vvv

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vv some old edgy badru thing vv

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vv ALSO !! I might've mentioned Lord Schwarz once or twice thus far but if you see me talking about him, this is the skeezy pos mfer right here. the op vampire bastard vv

vvvv this is his brother, Indriik. the less pos gross mfer man that is the only creature on this planet that can back talk his brother without being killed jfdjgdfg vvv hateful german vampire brothers <3

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vv fucked up spirit of a lady that was drowned by her lover in a lake outside Schwarz' mansion ?? i think idk vv something something,,, the only entity Schwarz, for some reason, is gentle to vv

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OH THE OG DRAWING FOR FATHER TIME (clock-head detective <3)

vv then the new version i did this year (owow look a recent drawing jfjdjgd) he is yet another very dramatic weird-headed entity (he has..... /some/ lore. Artemis knows him, and is made uncomfortable by him bc of what he actually is fddgfdg but thats another ramble for another time) VV

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vv and then a Whisper!! the little "casper-like entites" i might refer to now and again. they kinda wander Artemis' shop. they're echoes of souls of the living, animals, and supernatural that died of natural causes. they're gentle and very simple creatures, enjoy helping and are attracted to magic. Artemis happens to have a lot of that within his possession in the shop kfkfds so naturally they tend to like it there

#( ooc ) #( myart ) #long post #there is maybe one or two quality things in there but do not have high expectations; these are snip tool images JFJSDJD #i swear writing will happen im just jgjdfdf all over the place atm #also working on adding another slide to artemis' slides #((open that directly in google drive btw!! otherwise it probably will look weird)) #also hope yall enjoy the prime text formatting in this post bc its gonna stay like that bc the editor wont let me #open/edit the post <3 JFHDUJDFGD #alsox2 only bc i just remembered it but im pretty sure the idea behind the spirit of the lady in the lake #was meant to be like /made of leeches/ #And schwarz finds her both disgusting and pitiable so hes like.... aight... u can exist i feel bad for u

[minusgangtime]

I wanna lore dump about the different Shelbys cause yes-

Koral: koral was taken when she was a baby by a scientist and brought to heavily guarded facility,the scientists took the blood of a cat with chemical enhanced water and put into korals blood,the result was her becoming a humanoid water cat. As she grew up the doctors observed that she behaved more like a cat then a human,when she was 16 the facility was shut down by the government,and she escaped from the chaos,getting a dress to fit in,she’s like a little child/kitten exploring a world that she had been isolated from.

Soft Shelby: ya already know her lol. For this Shelby the incident was a terrible car crash that resulted in the death of her parents,after being discharged from the hospital,she became homeless,trying to find food for herself and Nala and Casper and midnight when she found her,she takes very little food for herself and more food for her cats,she has many bloody marks and injuries as people sometimes hit her for being a fake and for being homeless,needless to say she has 0 to no self worth and is almost never seen smiling.

Shroom: for shroom,things get different when she arrives in town,it was very harsh to her and her body shape and her seeable scars,she was bitten up and scared a lot by groups of people beating her up cause she was weak,as a result as ended up moving to a house far from society,but things get worse,Casper and Nala one night got kidnapped by cruel scientists,and it took a month for her to figure out where they had been,when she did,during the chaos,a doctor slashed her eye with a cursed dagger,this gave Shelby the ability to spread poison to others by touching them,she saved Casper and Nala while incapacitating all the doctors and burning the facility down. She realized by wearing gloves she can control her new curse better. After a month all the cursed cats from the facility came to shrooms home for food and shelter,also to make things even better,she found great financial success upon doing gaming livestreams,giving her money to support herself and her house of kitties.

S: the incident is different here,here Shelby ps grandpas strike slammed her head face first,this affected her eyes dramatically,making her permanently blind,back home,her mom,realizing she needed to get out of the toxic house gave her a visor,this helped her see,barely and she helped her pack up as she fled and left with her cats,upon arriving in the city,she dramatically changed her papier-mâché,by dying her hair and changing her outfit attire,she became a cover artist and now goes by the name S

-mod Shelby

(Ayyy! 👀)

(And they soon get a big brother too :>)

#mod speaks

[sf-libet]

i'd like to know more about Casper, and his relationship with his boss! and great job on your first sf drawing!!

Ayy thanks.

Casper's a more recent character I've made for a tabletop roleplay game sort of thing with some friends. To summarize who he is within the concept of the story, he's a secret agent working with the cops, specializing in infiltration and retrieval and all that jazz. He's a sorta strong silent type, emphasis on silent--he rarely speaks and seems to just appear in rooms without making a sound. He's got a lot of little lore bits going for him, standard "loner with a troubled past has to learn to trust/love other people again" kinda deal.

The campaign didn't really get very far, but I really liked playing with Casper within it, and the general lore of the world was pretty cool. Sort of a cyberpunk-y near future sort of deal, with all kinds of cybernetic augment-y fun therein. Cass doesn't have any real augments to speak of, but he does have a prosthetic left leg. Another important bit to do with the lore has to do with drugs that give special powers, with a specific variant giving crazy shit based on an individual's latent ability.

Casper's ability enables him to just regenerate and heal from all damage for a short period, which basically made him a bullet sponge if the occasion called for it. I have a number of different whump-ish scenarios on that subject, for those of you into that.

On terms of personality he's a very nose to the grindstone, dedicated person, to the point of self-detriment. To put it another way--he's an obsessive workaholic. He's absurdly reserved, and the way he acts is just plain weird sometimes. It's tough to crack his shell, but those that do find out he's kinda just a big softie. He's a sweetheart, but trauma coupled with quirks of his personality make it hard to see his humanity at times.

He kinda just is what he is. He's a weirdo, but very human underneath his cold exterior.

Cigarette smoke making him sneeze is just a little trait I added for flavor on the character sheet, but he's also allergic to dust. Not exactly prone to illness, but his scrawny frame makes any illness that does strike seem especially bad. He is quite prone to working through it and making things worse.

Him and the Chief sorta have a quasi-father+son sort of thing going on, but it's mostly by virtue of him being the only positive male role model in his life at this point. Casper is in his early 20s, but he signed up for the force straight out of high school, which contributes to that dynamic, because the Chief is an old ass man. Taken on as a pity hire but very quickly proving his worth, Casper respects the Chief and the Chief pays him that same courtesy. He's one of the few people Casper will actually chat with.

There's more I'll probably (inevitably) bring up in the future, but as a general rundown, this should give you most of what you want. Mayyyybe I'll dump a more normal Casper story here, who knows.

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