#characters deserve fun lil trans joy experiences as well as putting them thru the dysphoria horrors if you want. among every other thing

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🎁 — what have you accomplished in the rpc that you’re proud of?

Very genuinely coming back with a much, much much less anxious mindset that I’m STILL trying to break the fuck out of is impressive on its own to me I’m not gonna lie. It is sometimes an effort for me to engage with people and respond to messages in an even vaguely, remotely timely manner from overthinking and anxiety lmao. I essentially came back to the tumblr rpc to give myself a hobby outside of work and also selling/making artwork as a business and practice. This is very much a creative venture I don’t have to think as much about, both in the sense that it’s a hobby and comes pretty naturally to me at this rate. I was jokingly calling it art rehab therapy with my living mates. I also think it’s been slowly helping me be more social without freaking out about it. Also I was always very touched and softened by people telling me they started to fuck around with their characters’ gender and gender presentation and etc in rp after I started having SO much fun writing Rory and the Master as very explicitly trans masc. Characters are meant to be fucked with !!! That includes their gender !!!! Even if it feels wildly self indulgent !!!

#ooc #did not expect this blog to make me start working w how stunted I felt socially all of a sudden after lowkey isolating at my parents + work #the last year and a half where I dipped from tumblr rp #also the fun context that if the general You think that I’m ignoring you or forgot about you or something! no! I panicked and then forgot- #- that I never responded! #I’m getting better at following up but never feel bad about poking me!! #characters deserve fun lil trans joy experiences as well as putting them thru the dysphoria horrors if you want. among every other thing