I hatr my life. I hate myself. I can't keep lying to evwryone to try and make myself feel normal.
Im not normal. I hatr myself. I hate myself so fucking much. I have tried so hard not to do it. I've been trying to hard. I hate making myself look even more disgusting but I can't help it.
I can't not punish myself. I can't stop. I cant stop i cant stop i cant stop i cant stop. I hate doing it but I cant stop i cant stop i cant.
Seeing myself in the mirror has gotten harder. I always need more bandages. God, this is worse than when I was bullied. At least then I had an excuse. I could blame everything on being bullied.
I've gotten so skilled with a blade. It's horrible. I hate doing this. Why cant I just stop? I dont want to do it anymore but it wont stop creeping up on me. That urge. It won't go away. If I don't do it, I get so upset and scared I start to feel physically ill. I cant stop...i need help...im sorry...