#depression whooooooooooo

[snixx]

god i forgot how much i loved teaching

#it may actually be my favourite thing #im just so glad i started again i haven't been this happy in forever #(forever being the past month but this past month has ben ROUGH okay like crying every day rough) #im so happyyy #depression whooooooooooo #also i did not thing about you know who THE WHOLE DAY #ive been so caught up in this bullshit i fogot what made me take the decision in the first place #like obviously it hurt it hurt a lot but i forgot how free my day is without them #literally the amount of time i wasted every day agonizing over them #i feel. not to be dramatic but i feel CLEAN and FRESH and NEW #and in love with life #for the first time in forever

[bitchyblue]

I got so stressed out at one point today I started vibrating but like not in a fun way

#whooooooooooo boy #this is my one day off and i've spent it in bed #still in pjs and it's dark out #TRYING NOT TO FEEL GUILTY ABOUT THIS FACT #depression and anxiety are just......fuckin assholes aren't they

[bates--boy]

And now Peter had arrived at the comedown.

      Which meant lying curled up in the dark of his bedroom, head propped up on an elbow, and scrolling through the chat backlog to distract himself from the obsessive worry that he had let his emotions get the better of him over the past couple weeks, and this was the start of a depressive episode. He had the pills in his body, even swallowing an extra one just in case.

        It meant that this was as clearheaded as he was going to get. A message popped up onto his screen.

        [Mike] Y’all up? got some good news!

        [Mike] We’re almost at 1M sales!

        [Tarsha] WHOOOOOOOOOOO!

        [Adel] Celebration?

        [Mike] you know it!!!

        Tired as he was, Peter smiled, turning onto his stomach to get more comfortable.

        [Pete] we should plan something big

        [Nazz] Livestream maybe? Let our adoring fans in on the festivities.

        Peter was clearheaded. He knew he was, even if he felt like wrapping himself in a blanket and doze off for a week. He showered and bathed morning, noon, and night until his body stopped shivering with Naseem and Ashira’s unabated heat and tenderness. He occupied his time with terrible movies and amazing books until he stopped thinking about how toned Naseem’s legs were when he straddled them, or how slender Ashira’s fingers were around his thigh.

        And yet he saw Naseem’s name--

        [Sheer] Shall I buy some new party clothes for the kids?

        Then he saw Ashira’s name, and he redirected his thoughts to fantasies with them both that weren’t centered on fucking and getting fucked.

        Like how fun it would be to help Ashira fix her hair in a bun.

        Or laying his legs across Naseem’s lap while they enjoyed a bottle of wine while making music.

        Or he and Ashira writing some stories together with no plans to publish, just a fun thing between them.

        Like all three of them going to a bookstore, Peter carrying the bouncing Hasan in the baby carrier strapped to him, Ashira holding Pakiza’s hand, the team following Naseem as he led them through the shelves and carried the basket of books they wanted to buy.

        Peter opened a new message and added Naseem and Ashira.

        [Pete] hey guys. just wanted to let you know that i decided that i would love to be in a relationship with you

        [Nazz] Great!

        [Nazz] You free this Saturday?

#The MizFists #life thus far ( story ) #droid noodles ( writing )

[hobbithair]

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#whooOoOOooOoO 5th breakdown of this weekend i love depression #if i give someone my address can u hire a hit man to kill me thanks

[suddenlybirdflash]

2018 GOALS

IM GONNA GET FIT AND SEXY AND HEALTHY! IM GONNA FINISH WRITING MY NOVEL(S)!!!! IM GONNA MOVE INTO A NICE HOUSE IN SOCAL ON THE BEACH WITH MY FRIENDS AND MY BF AND BE HAPPY! IM GONNA PET MY ANGRY OLD CAT AND LET HER KNOW I LOVE HER EVEN MORE THAN I DID LAST YEAR (I did it a lot)!!!! IM GOING TO LOVE MYSELF EVEN IF NONE OF THESE THINGS HAPPEN (although the cat one is a given ofc) AND KICK MY DEPRESSIONS FUCKING ASS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2018 WHOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!!!

#2018 #its happening #my goals #new year #new me #resolutions #op

[literallyjuststopbotheringme]

Am i just having a bad day or am i full on in a depressive episode??? WHooooOoOOoOo knows?!

[meetthehannah]

depressed depressed depressed...whooooooooooo