#did i unbury this from my inbox and my drafts?

[elvisabutler]

reading your headcanons and i just got to thinking how cute it would be if Pricilla gave pa!Reader her “something borrowed” for her wedding with Austin

consider. you are wholeheartedly correct and that is very cute. you and me and pa! reader are the only people who think it's cute. actually priscilla thinks it's flattering but also it Concerns her so much just like most of your relationship. she doesn't want you two to break up, never necessarily has, just she really wishes there was a smaller gap in your ages. that's all.

still. you see this hair clip/hair piece? yeah that's what priscilla gives you. specifically you ask for it in between austin trying every trick in the book to get you to realize it's dumb. and he hates it. so to make it worse you also go for these earrings.

"i don't wanna marry priscilla, i wanna marry you and- you have had enough problems separating the two!" "it doesn't mean anything!" "to us it does! to me it does!" "it's something borrowed, it's tradition!" "I don't want to borrow priscilla presley!" "i mean it wouldn't-" "or priscilla beaulieu or wagner or whatever one of her last names you want to use, little dove. i just want you. i can't lose you again especially not now." "you won't? daddy, i'm not the one who called me 'cilla."

but you end up calling the therapist because you figure austin is being super unreasonable and while the therapist agrees that it's kind of iffy to be wearing something of priscilla's to your wedding considering "you left him for calling you that, now you want to be it for your wedding?" "no, i want a piece of what gave me him for our wedding." and so everyone but austin kind of agree that you should have the hair thing and the earrings.

you end up having to call priscilla and lisa marie to be at the wedding which you realize puts a strain on both of them but you're not sure you can get austin to calm down enough by yourself so the calvary is needed. because you and anything priscilla related just triggers something awful in the man. it happens any time and it nearly makes it so all the costumes you stole? you have to almost burn them. just. austin hates you and priscilla related outfits/hair/anything. if he could make it so you never have to remember being priscilla again? he totally would. hell, so he could remember you were never priscilla and didn't get so traumatized by it that you hid things from him? he'd do that too. just don't talk to him about you and priscilla related things, it's a one way ticket to arguments and cursing and being called butler for him.

but you call in the calvary and you get to wear her hair piece and her old earrings and you literally before a judge marries you or maybe an elvis impersonator or maybe both because y'all are weird like that, you literally have to hold austin's hands in your own with the hair thing and the earrings in and just tell him your thoughts while he's looking at you and looking scared and angry all at once. "this thing doesn't matter. if i can handle wearing this on my wedding to my daddy, to my satnin, my austin. then i can handle anything. it'll be cathartic, aus." "but-" "i can take this off. i'm going to take this off the second i say i do and give it back to her. and the only person kissing you is going to be your little dove." "i still don't like this." "that's fine. i do, and you're just going to let me do it because you love me so much you'd do anything for me." "yeah, i do. promise me it's coming off the second-" "it's painful to wear, trust me, daddy. it is." "you do look gorgeous though." "not as handsome as you."

the pictures baz takes using his phone and austin's camera? some of the best and worst ones you can imagine. whoever let mildly tipsy baz operate a camera is a bad person.

it was you. it was totally you.

you frame all of them. including the out of focus one with you kissing austin in the hair piece and earrings. and the in focus ones of you with your own hair down and your hands pulling austin closer because the only person who's ever going to kiss him again is his little dove and that's you.

#austin butler x priscilla actress reader #did i unbury this from my inbox and my drafts? #maybe. #i just like this okay. it's definitely happening in the fic series. i promise because it is a fantastic idea. #but it's far enough away that yeah i'll post this. #austin butler x y/n #austin butler x reader #spoilers: austin will always get over his own elvis issues better than he gets over your priscilla issues. #time can do so much except heal that very well apparently. #also yeah no baz is at least tipsy no matter which au or anything this is. we love soccer mom wine drunk baz luhrmann in this house. #i truly love eurus for the image i'm not kidding.

[recurring-polynya]

Writing/Dog Update 8/1/2020:

You know what, time has no meaning anymore, I said it.

Ahh, the good news is my brain is writey again, and the bad news is that I have finally come to terms with the fact that I don’t really have a lot of free time. It seems like I have free time, because I’m bored a lot, but taking care of my kids and washing dishes and stuff like that takes time, plus, there’s me and two kids sharing one computer. They like to play Minecraft, and they do an online science camp a couple times a week, which is good for their socialization, I think. Whenever I do get some free time, I get interrupted a lot, which makes it hard to make headway on things like writing.

I don’t like to talk about it much, but there’s a lot of mental health stuff going on with one of my kids, so there have also been hours of telehealth appointments happening, not to mention a lot of phone calls and messaging doctors and calling the pharmacy again, and geez, this shit takes a lot of time and energy. One of the reasons I finally went to therapy myself was so I would have some experience navigating the system, because I could tell it was gonna come to this eventually, and I am here to report: It did not help as much as I had hoped.

I have decided to continue a little in love now and then, in part because it feels very easy and doable, and also, I have gotten a lot of really nice feedback on it. I just had to table The Heart is a Muscle for now. I certainly hope to get back to it eventually, but maybe now is just not the season. I have been getting drabble prompts again-- I wrote one about Rukia being horny for Renji earlier, and literally, as I posted it, another ask came in, so much for Inbox 0. Before I get back to that, though, I felt compelled to write more of Heroes of the Hueco Mundo Invasion-- In Love!! I actually finished Ch 2, except that there’s one joke that I either need to change, or change the entire direction of Ch 4, I am still debating.

Oh, also, remember a while ago, I said I was gonna write the sex scene from Between Tides even though I was sure it was gonna take a gazillion drafts? I am on, like, draft 6 now. Dammit.

I am reading a Real Book right now. It is Sing, Unburied, Sing, by Jesmyn Ward, and it is really good and poetic and well-written, but it’s also heart-wrenching-- full of pain and violence and neglected children and my poor soul cannot handle it. After this, I am going to read Persuasion. I tried.

Finally, we have a new foster dog, possibly to become a forever dog, this time. She is a mini-hound, 30 pounds of elbows and velvety ears and pointy snout. She has many of the same mannerisms as our last forever dog, who passed when my daughter was an infant. She is extremely lazy, and likes to sleep on the top of the back of the couch and also in the bed with us, on our pillows, if possible. Our cat bullies her. The children think she is kind of boring, but my husband and I are enamored with her. She is also heartworm positive, and started her treatment this week, so I have been driving her back and forth to the vet and stuffing ten pills into her per day. She has to be in restricted activity for a month. A month!! Good thing she’s lazy.

#my writing #writing update #personal update #i'm tired yo