#donesurvivin

[doomdays]

@donesurvivin​:  “aren’t you tired?”  

it’s late as she as she takes a stroll with her daughter down the quiet streets of their new  (  maybe, temporary  )  community,  and he’s right,  she is tired,  but it’s the first time she’s seen her all day,  and these are the moments she used to look forward to back home.  ❝  i don’t even know what that word means anymore,  ❞   she admits,  offering him a small smile as she glances down at the baby,  resting peacefully in her stroller.  ❝  just got off shift a while ago  ---  wanted to spend some time with her before i called it a night.  what about you?  out lookin’ for some kind of  party?  think i heard one a few blocks down.  ❞  she’s teasing,  her tone almost mocking,  because while she’s adapting here easily  ---  it’s just as strange and uncomfortable for her, too.  

#donesurvivin #thread: r. espinosa.

[thefixergone]

she  will  come :      three  words  written  on  a  wall ,      and  a  strangeness  hits  her .      it’s  odd  to  know  who  exactly  the  person  is  referring  to .      especially  when  she  knows  it’s  herself   ...      actually ,      that  just  makes  it  extra  weird .      mia  does  not  call  attention  to  herself ,      as  there’s  a  reason  for  anonymity      (  especially  in  this  post  -  apocalyptic  climate .  )      she  still  has  enemies      ——      many  of  them .      she  also  has  gained  a  small  following ,      at  least  for  her  good  deeds .      make  no  mistake ,      the  fixer  finds  that  she  isn’t  prideful  about  it .      it’s  all  the  more  of  a  reason  to  keep  herself  at  a  distance  from  what  she  represents      ——      [  rebellion ,      courage  and  strength .  ]      her  eyes  shift  behind  a  pair  of  sunglasses      (  yes ,      she  stole  someone’s  sunglasses   ...      probably  off  of  a  soldier  )      and  settle  on  joel .      “  we  close  to  the  checkpoint  yet  ?  ”      she  asks ,      now  closing  the  distance  between  them .      “  we  could  find  a  place  to  take  a  break .      looks  like  you  can  use  a  little  rest .  ”

            starter  call :      @donesurvivin​​ ,            ...

#donesurvivin #* thread ‚ donesurvivin : zombie verse . #aggos my loveeeeeee #thank you for once again blessing me with your joel #i was extremely attempted to make this starter softTM #hell it might still be but you know <3 #giving it a little flare can't hurt #hope it works!

[malluck]

     ​[  𝚂𝙲  ]           @donesurvivin​​  

❛     i   understand   i’m   a   traitor ,     but   what   are   you ?      you’ve      never       done       so much        as once       complain       in your life   ...      i  used  to  think  you  were  so  much  better  than  me .        i used to look up to you   ...      but     you’re     no     better than     any    monster    that’s ever    walked this earth ,      joel .     ❜

#donesurvivin #◌ 𝟷𝟿𝟽𝟾 ﹙ main verse ﹚ #w- we-- wew;e;e weeeeeee #we fightin ://

[buildhope]

@donesurvivin​​,  ❝ i got a new build i’m about to start workin’ on.   somethin’ for the community  ---  for the kids.  i was thinkin’,  maybe,  if you were interested,  you could help.   i’m thinkin’ you’d be the perfect right-hand man.  ❞  

#donesurvivin #queue. #besties

[vigilan7e]

@donesurvivin​

“second truck from the left. that’s the fueled up one.” his head peeks over the weathered wall and he scans the parking lot for just a second. a small church, a row of cars and two armed men, fogging up their gasmasks with acrid breaths. one of them says something, his partner hesitates before laughing.

“if you want to this to work, you could distract them while i jack the car.” finally, aiden looks over to the other man. he also seemed fine stealing from a church. in a way, it wouldn’t be a shame if one of them died here. in some cosmic sense, it would be alright. expected even.

#ill probably drop icons soon but . you know. SHGIRFGH #donesurvivin #badgateway.ver

[doomdays-a]

“how would sasha describe their friendship with joel?”  ↺  @donesurvivin​​

i think in a lot of ways,  joel reminds sasha of tyreese.  but he also reminds her of themself.  joel is very much in between sasha and tyreese in a way that’s very comforting to sasha without even realizing it,  most of the time.

sasha’s big brother has always been the most important person in their life.   not just their brother but their protector,  their role model,  their safety net,  their best friend.  she’s always looked up to him and always found that she is most herself when standing next to him  ---  because tyreese never gave sasha the chance to be anything other than themself.  he always provided that comfort zone for her that she sought but never knew how to ask for.  he knew what sasha needed,  most of the time,  before they ever knew themself.  that doesn’t mean she was always willing to listen / take his advice right away,  but his words always stuck with them until they eventually clicked.

tyreese always kept her in check,  for good or bad.  and i think sasha starts to understand that after he’s gone and when she spends more time with joel.  she finds herself stopping herself from doing something that tyreese would have warned them against.  sasha looks at joel and hears tyreese’s voice in the back of their head saying “this man is counting on you to be there for him, remember how important you are to someone else.”   because sometimes she does forget that  ---  they’re very well aware of how capable and valuable they are, but putting themself next to someone else and truly understanding that they can be valuable to someone specifically is.... hard for her to comprehend,  but tyreese,  though he’s gone,  does help guide her along.  

i think that joel would have been exactly what sasha needed exactly when she needed him.  at a time when they were so adamant about not letting anyone else in,  yet  ---  there was some resonation with joel that she found comfort in.  because he does remind them of their brother,  in the way that joel was so strong and so loving and caring even if he isn’t always outwardly about it.  sasha sees the love and care that joel has for his brother,  and it makes her feel very comfortable because tyreese was sasha’s best friend.   and then she sees the love he has for ellie and that makes her feel comfortable,  too.  

i think in a lot of ways not only does joel reflect who tyreese was,  but there’s a level of comfort and resonation with who sasha is,  how they both may not always be so open about how they’re feeling but they can sit down next to each other and just understand that the other is down but doesn’t want / need to talk about it,  they just need to be there.  so that’s what they do  ---  they’re just there for each other,  and they don’t always have to talk about it,  and that’s okay.  too many people have tried to force sasha to talk or to dig into how they’re feeling and it makes her feel so uncomfortable in their own skin because often times,  sasha would rather act than she would talk.  and i think,  to some degree,  joel can be like that too?  which means that maybe,  the two of them can catch the other doing it and helping them through it more than they can help themselves,  which gives them a really strong balance in their friendship.

sasha is just comfortable around joel,  and in their current state after she’s lost her brother,  that’s a very difficult feat.  they aren’t comfortable around most people once they lost their brother,  but joel breaks that barrier because i think he just understands what sasha might need without having to say it out loud and that’s what she clings to.   if sasha’s pissed off,  she trusts joel enough to talk her down without making it worse,  like some people might if they don’t understand her.  if sasha’s sad,  they can count on joel to just distract them in a way that he would know she needed  (  keeping her busy / distracted / doing something productive rather than just sitting with those feelings.  )   

sasha didn’t want to get close to anyone again after losing tyreese.  they’ve lost every good person in their life and they think it’s just easier to be without anyone,  so it’s scary to get close to joel,  but it also feels so rejuvenating.   i do really think there’s a lot of parallels between them  (  and perhaps i’ll rewatch someday and note them all because it’s a bit blurry to me  )  but i see that being a very big thing of comfort for sasha.  joel’s love for his family reminds sasha of tyreese’s love for her,  and his demeanor is a very big comfort zone for her because it really matches their own in some ways  ---  without her even realizing it.  that’s why they like being around him,  even if it’s not exactly something sasha realizes. 

anyway this didn’t answer your question from sasha’s pov,  but  --- i think sasha would describe it as a friendship that was good for them,  a friendship that she always needed and always wanted,  though they didn’t realize it until they met him.  he’s the only person that she is truly, fully comfortable around because he doesn’t make them feel like they’re wrong for feeling what they feel and he also isn’t forcing her to put on a smile “just because,”  like a lot of people she comes across.  he feels very real and genuine to sasha and they like that.  

#𝐒𝐓𝐔𝐃𝐘: s. williams. #𝐌𝐄𝐓𝐀: s. williams. #𝐃𝐘𝐍: sasha & joel. #𝐑𝐄: donesurvivin. #donesurvivin #meta. #me rereading your question after im finished: oh.. how they would describe it not me .. fdskajf

[bewrath]

                                @donesurvivin                       you  should  be  thanking  me ,                                 not  blaming  me .

as     mouthy     as     he     is ,      there     are     still     rare     moments     where     his     jaw     just           stops .      and his tongue       forgets      how      to     move ,       falling immobile ,       conveying a response ,      𝙾𝚁      𝙻𝙰𝙲𝙺      𝚃𝙷𝙴𝚁𝙴𝙾𝙵 ,         speechless .        for once in his life ,       he’s      not      sure       what      to      say .      falls   one   with   gravity ,        stunned ,        like a rock        that just landed into soil’s earth ,        homecoming epiphany        that’s been welcomed ,   but      not      exactly      delighted      to have arrived .       and all he can muster ,       after everything ,      with each thought     toppling    one    after    the    other         is ,     ❛      man ,       𝙶𝙾       𝙵𝚄𝙲𝙺      𝚈𝙾𝚄𝚁𝚂𝙴𝙻𝙵 .      ❜

#donesurvivin #⁰⁰⁴ 𝙾𝙻𝙳𝙴𝚁 𝚅𝙴𝚁𝚂𝙴 [ post mortem ] #this is OLD #but u know i had to do to it to #what exactly???? idk. #idk what's going on but all i know is tht my two favorite men are Fighting #and anything david says???? more than likely talkin out of his ass

[malluck-a]

llewyn i thought we were gonna be like bffs thats what we said from the beginning and then u turned on me why'd u turn fake on me llewyn i don't understand

#llewyn vc sorry new phone do i know u <3 #donesurvivin

[doomdays]

@donesurvivin →  “to be honest, you scare me.”

she takes it as a compliment  ---  it’s intentional,  keeping everyone at a distance,  intimidating them enough to at least know not to get on her bad side.  it’s not where they’re forced to remain  ---  she can be soft,  too.  she likes to be,  when it’s granted,  when she’s with the right people.  she just hasn’t made her mind up about joel yet.  he’s tough to figure out,  tough to get to know ---  and that much,  at least,  intrigues her  (   are they the same?  or worlds apart?  )   if there’s one person she knows she can trust,  it’s aaron  ---  and if he vouches for joel,  then it’s a little easier for her to have some faith in him.

❝  that your way of suckin’ up?  ❞   she checks her bag one last time,  ensuring everything’s in place before turning back to him,  her eyes studying him for a moment.  ❝  just keep up with me out there,  and we got no problem.  ❞  it comes with a smirk,  a way to tell him that she knows he can keep up   ---  she just wants to see for herself how well he can handle himself. 

#donesurvivin #thread: r. espinosa. #queue. #ro and joel on a lil scouting mission thank you #aaron: hey can you babysit

[immuniis-a]

ellie: maybe you should both mind ur own business 

@donesurvivin @lonesnipr​ 

#donesurvivin #lonesnipr #i'm crying i can't handle her i'm soRRY #joel: breathes near her #ellie: ur so dumb joel #JK I LOVE HIM LMAOOO #and tommy obVIOUSLY

[stagcharmed-a]

the way you made james your own and gave him such depth, like he's not just a pretty boi who's pretty dumb ( even when you joke and memes about him a lot which I love and support ). you made him an actual human being with flaws and strength and I just !!! well I'm a fan of all your blogs and muses even if we don't interact ic anymore idc I just enjoy reading you post about James and i find myself reading your threads when I come across them on the dash going all 'haha classic james' hsjsh ilu 🥺

Tell me what you enjoy about how I portray my character

aggos wtf aoiskfks this is so nice I miss writing with you so much  :(  rip to the shadowhunters blogs, peter parker, and cora hale !!

 I’m a fan of all your blogs too like do I know anything about tlou or good girls, no. am i stanning joel and rio harder than anyone ever purely because of you? YES !!!! 

but honestly this is so nice my heart feels FULL this honestly means so much to me aodisk thanku I am always trying to balance out flaws/stengths and give him more depth as a character then we see in books or a lot of the fandom so i am so happy it’s working adknsk 

#chants: make a blog make a blog make a blog #AGGOS I MISS WRITING W U SO MUCH #fuck it buying a ps4 so I can understand tlou #but in all seriousness this is genuinely so nice of u to say i lov u sm old friend !!!!!! <3 #donesurvivin #also thanks for the support for the himbo memes

[horrorbled]

@donesurvivin​​ 

❛❛    does it ever get   any    easier  ?    ❜❜

#donesurvivin #u don't need to use icons bih i just wanted to do it bc this was a dialogue thingy and it felt weird posting without one askjd #WE GO ICONLESS AFTER THIS #but i love u and icb joel's gonna be ben's dad now #and ben's gonna fight zombies shit's wild #i love u #also don't look at me jumping on the blockquote icon train ...

[malluck]

                                 @donesurvivin                        what ,  fuckhead ?  who  taught  you  grammar ?                                                     badly  is  an  adverb .  

❛     but    y’know    what     i    mean  ,    don’t    you ?     ❜      it feels godless .          out here ,      there are no corners to turn      or any walls to surrender against .       he learns ,      this wide ,   open landscape seldom has things to offer       —       can be so       suffocating when it has nothing       𝙴𝚇𝙲𝙴𝙿𝚃      𝙳𝚁𝚈      𝙳𝙸𝚁𝚃      𝙰𝙽𝙳      𝚂𝙾𝙸𝙻 ,         the      uncomfortable     feeling     of hot air that wafts into his chest     and burns at the strangeness of something    he    doesn’t     even     know      the     name     of .           it’s guilt ,      but he can’t quite understand     the     differences     between iniquity’s consequences      and           a random stomach ache .      all he knows       —       it feels like the dirt .      it   feels   like   the   dirt   that scuffs   against his shoe ,       escaping down his esophagus ,       makes him he feel like      coughing up      from the rue       —       as if       this could’ve all been avoided . 

there’s a desperation      in his eyes      when he then insists ,    ❛     you     understand  ...     ❜      thinks ,       right now ,          𝙸𝙵 𝙶𝙾𝙳 𝙸𝚂𝙽'𝚃 𝙿𝚁𝙴𝚂𝙴𝙽𝚃 ,       𝙼𝙰𝚈𝙱𝙴 𝙷𝙴'𝙻𝙻 𝙻𝙸𝚂𝚃𝙴𝙽 𝙸𝙽𝚂𝚃𝙴𝙰𝙳 .     ❛     if i told you ,          i        feel        badly     about happened back there ...          you’d understand ,  right ?     ❜

#donesurvivin #◌ 𝙸𝙽𝙱𝙾𝚇 ﹙ answer ﹚ #◌ 𝙳𝙾𝙽𝙴𝚂𝚄𝚁𝚅𝙸𝚅𝙸𝙽 ﹙ joel miller ﹚ #like.... why did i make it so fuckin sad tho #icb i just had the audacity #verse tbt

[buildhope]

@donesurvivin​  →   “do you believe in this place?”

there’s no place in the world that alden believes in more than he believes in hilltop  ---  and it may have been the first real place he saw that seemed to have real life in it,  but it was so much more than that.  it was in the people there,  the way everyone treated each other with respect,  with care.  it’s the way people smiled easily,  not like they were forced,  but like they actually had reason to smile.  it’s why alden’s decision was made so easily  ---  before he even ever had a say in where he got to stay.

❝  ain’t a place i believe in more,  ❞   he admits,  looking up to joel and shaking his head slowly.  ❝  more home than my old one ever was.  not just before this,  i mean  .  .  .   y’know.  before.  ❞  that home hardly felt like a home,  and maybe that’s because he had something in hilltop that he hardly ever had before everything:  a family.  ❝  hard not to,  when we got the people here that we do.  real proud to be a part of somethin’ like that  .  .  .   always what i dreamt of,  just never really thought it existed.  you’ve been out there a lot,  huh?  you ever  ----  i d’know,  find it hard to dig your feet in anywhere?  or  .  . .   did y’always know what kinda place you might end up in?   ❞

#donesurvivin #arc: main. #queue. #alden: dont ask me dumb questions - #fdakjfdslak

[uncaanny]

donesurvivin: “Maybe, for now, three bodies are enough.”

      Enough. Fucking Enough. As if he had a daily cuota. ‘Only three bodies today m’am, come back tomorrow we might have room for a couple more. How do you want ‘em? Shot in the face? Beaten to death?‘ She laughs at her own thought and the sound edges on hysterical. She’s been standing there since the fight ended, still clutching the revolver in her hand, the heat of the barrel burning through the fabric of her stained jeans. The wall behind her back is a welcome steadiness. Cool, grimy with ancient dirt but it’s still away from the pool of blood lapping towards her in an eerie slow motion. Thick, like blood. That is blood. 

      “I don’t know man, two to one? I got room for one more,” again that laugh, though at least she manages to keep her voice levelled. “Remind me not to piss you off.”

#now & then u gotta remember the world that joel can be fucken scary #donesurvivin #v: tlou.

[doomdays-a]

❝ let’s not say farewell. i’ve had enough of that to last me a dozen winters. ❞ /  @donesurvivin​​

goodbye has always been the hardest part for sasha,  always trying so hard to avoid it instead.  their brother’s voice is always in the back of her mind,  reminding sasha that they’ll regret it if they don’t say goodbye when they do have the chance.  he was right,  she just wishes she knew that before he was the one who they never got the chance to say goodbye to.  but what’s here with joel,  this bond they’ve formed with him,  is something they’re not willing to see the END in,  not willing to let go of yet.

he’s not going to end up like bob,  he’s not going to end up like tyreese.  it’s like a mantra she repeats to herself over and over again:  just this once,  this person is here to stay.  just this once,  they won’t LOSE.  

❝  always knew you’d be hard to get rid of.  ❞   it’s their attempt at a joke  ---  something that didn’t used to be so rare,  until recently,  but it’s a sign that maybe,  they’re getting back to their old self  ---  or something close to it.   ❝  m’not going anywhere.  neither are you.  so i guess it looks like we’re stuck with each other.  ❞   for once,  that doesn’t sound so bad.  

#donesurvivin #𝐓𝐇𝐑𝐄𝐀𝐃: s. williams. #queue. #every time i write sash and joel i think about how shes like.. the same height as ellie :/ roast them both joel