#dystopian fiction n. utopias n stuff like that was smth i rlly grew up with as a kid. that concept

[noxtivagus]

TODAY

#🌙.rambles #ARGHHH SCHOOL WAS SO ANXIETY FOR MOST OF IT BUT 😭 phew. i made it through #n talking w my friends at school n yk apollo n i staying later than we usually do bcs of our fair committee #it's rlly nice. that feeling yk #n this is the first time in so long that i've napped #my attention span is so bad rn so i'm prioritizing school first (i get so distracted still tho) #but. BUT #ohh earlier i rmb i was thinking otw back home abt how. recently life's felt so.. real & unreal #huh. it's rlly confusing but i've really just yk resolved to keep on moving forward. #my sleep's been rather messy lately for the past week bcs i have to wake up at 5:30 for school but #i've been hesitating less lately. i think. idk i don't know how to say it but #my attention span is so bad rn helpppp T_T i shld finish my part for this assignment n then #oh i have smth due tmrrw morning but i just have to write a few sentences to a question relating to like #smth w my fav 20th century lit n. IT'S SO HARD TO PICK ONE BUT #i'm gna write abt the giver a bit bcs it's rlly a special book to me. very integral in my childhood. #dystopian fiction n. utopias n stuff like that was smth i rlly grew up with as a kid. that concept #so i guess that says smth abt my conflict w my perfectionism n. the opposite. #i love late night talks so much yk something that's kept me sane is being able to talk w apollo on like #we have. very similar paths ahead of us. it's always intertwined n connected in some way. we're never really far. #i'm rlly grateful to have such a connection honestly even if apollo's an ass often (but i am as well) <3 sibling dynamic fr #resolved instead of dwelling on the past i'll keep on moving forward to. reach out to my many ambitions #i'll continue being productive for now n then i'll. get stuff done eventually.