#even if he can't — my landlord isn't allowed to start the eviction process til the 15th

[deadtower]

me after spending the past 12 hours or so in a blinding panic of anxiety like. hm. things are really gonna be okay, huh

#like. i have a job. my first shift is tomorrow (it's a stage shift but like i have the job it's already concrete) #(and i've staged there before so like i know how the place works) #yeah i don't have rent but my brother might be able to help me out #he's more willing to help me out than he is a lot of people #and he knows i'm really fucked financially this moth #*month #even if he can't — my landlord isn't allowed to start the eviction process til the 15th #she told me to tell her if i ever had an emergency and we can work smth out #(bc last year i was in the psych ward and she said that she understands and she's here for me) #not to mention my first paycheck will definitely be before then #i also have an interview tonight at 6 for what /looks/ like a manager position #the guy asked for my portfolio re: photography/graphic design/etc #so i may be getting like. a Social Media Manager type of job which would be SALARIED #even if not. this place pays their HOSTS what i was getting as an EVENT COORDINATOR #yeah finances still suck but they won't for long #this week is gonna let me know just how things are gonna go from here #and what i'll be able to afford #i just have to calm down and be like ok. this happened. what's my next steps #at the VERY worst my situation would be that i would have to move back in with my mom #which is not great but like i won't be homeless #just gotta take a deep breath and take one day at a time #i mean i keep reminding myself my best friend's roommate was 7 MONTHS LATE on rent #bc he kept buying... eurghghg [redacted] #and while im sure my landlord wouldnt let me go 7 MONTHS #the fact im this stressed about being on time with rent AND IT AINT EVEN JUNE 1 YET #like girl chill #ok. (does a bunch of deep breaths in succession) it's gonna be ok