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neon indian is hot

and nobody told me???

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watching becky g's shower music video and its so obvious the director is thinking of arthouse ass concepts, but honestly i love it it's so unexpected and visually interesting, i think it elevates the material and brings out the less stereotypical parts of becky's persona back then (versus the oath music video with cher lloyd, which has really cute outfits but the aesthetics are so aggressively mid-2013)

#never thought id be dissecting becky g music videos but here we are #feathertexts #gonna study after this

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never thought id say this but poor kolchak he was just a guy

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am i attracted to mixed looking/racially ambiguous men because i am racially ambiguous too

real question bc i find a lot of guys hot but a disproportionate amount of them are malays and south Americans who have very diverse and also neutral (??) features (please dont flame me i literally do not know how tf to describe this)

my friend says i have a type I'm crying

and it really is purely visual and not based on experiences with ppl from that race, i barely know any malay guys personally and i dont know any south Americans period

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First impressions of bridget jones diary are not so good bc i’d learnt at some point a few yrs ago that it was a pride and prejudice adaptation and i rerembered that fact against my will bc of the 1st scene of “mark darcy” badmouthing “bridget lizzie”.

I dont like that bc i think bridget and her mom and most parts of her life and character are sadsack forced relatability versions of elizabeth bennet who is smart and capable and does not accept a stranger like darcy’s unnecessary, undeserved and untrue evaluation of her. Among other things elizabeth bennet would not have drunk wine and sung all by myself like a loser 😭😭😭 and thats fine. I just think we should make our own work. And distance ourselves from the original work if we’re gonna change THAT much. If i have to watch this im just gonna think of it as the director reading the cliffnotes version of pride and prejudice and making it a quirky and relatable feel good romcom instead of the coming of age yearning pining drama it was supposed to be. God i hate you all. Im only watching it for hugh grant anyway.

#feathertexts #also making her an only child is fucking blasphemy??.

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Every night my mom takes her notebook and pencilbox and sits in front of me at the dining table. she writes out her fitness plans for her clients, like what workouts to do, time slots for one of her clients etc. she reminds me of anthony bridgerton doing paperwork in his study after dinner lol. they both look quite serious while doing it xD

like a few weeks ago, my sisters and i stayed over at my cousins house for a few days. one night i turned bridgerton on at my cousins house and expected everyone to clown on me (jayden and i lay on the sofa and watched it from the beginning cuz period dramas are a hugeee guilty pleasure of ours lmaoao), but initially all the others did clown on us lol) but 15 minutes in, everyone just crowded around with a bag of chips, even nickhil! i was so happy. then after bingeing like 5 or 6 episodes we went upstairs and goofed around some more.

we all slept in my aunt and uncle’s room, the master bedroom, some sleep on the bed and some sleep on mattresses on the floor. it has light pink or sorta magenta walls and it’s also unreasonably big lol. the ceilings are suuuper high and the fan is quite literally all the way up there. and the whole room is probably equivalent in length to the length of my body (1.58m), times 5 or 6. so that’s like prolly around 8 or 9 metres. and we were just lounging around the room talking to each other. the next morning too, we just turned on spotify on the tv and played songs while engaging in some aimless banter (aimless but hilarious). i get that same feeling at home too, at the dining table in the morning, some are in the kitchen doing something, some are sitting at the table eating breakfast, just talking and making each other laugh. it reminds me of scenes from the bridgerton drawing room, everybody just sitting in the same space, enjoying each other’s company. conversation just flows so easily. 

anyway, we went upstairs. first, jayden and i randomly started discussing lord and lady names for each of the cousins. i taught jayden how to do a random ballroom dance that i mostly made up (palm to palm, spin around, and then he dips me. xDDD) then that turned into jayden and i speaking posh regency english (”she has a beautiful face, but i’ve never met a girl with an uglier countenance!”), me rambling to jayden about regency english quirks that i’ve picked up on, and then just coalescing into a fullblown roleplay where jayden (Lord Nishen) and i (Lady Dilusha) were the sassy, loud gossipmongers of the ton, and Lady Beatrise, Lady Nivon, Lord Nickhil and Miss Bernadette were the innocent members of court who are subject to our preachy ramblings. at one point we even pretended to get on a carriage by shutting ourselves in a closet LMAO. this is why i love them so much. but also, the historical parallels. i mean my historical knowledge is def not limited to period dramas, but it gives me equal parts amusement and comfort to think about us goofing off like that. it’s timeless to me :’)))

#feathertexts #fav #love #pure happiness

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People or characters that i think i am so so similar to (down to mannerisms and the way they talk and conversation style)

2. Queen charlotte (bridgerton) (esp the younger version)

1. Amelia dimoldenberg

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Add 90s tom cruise to the list of celebrity guys with awkward vibes that i have weirdly huge crushes on

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i’m so obsessed with this painting bro look at her face

it looks like the transition from desperate fear to quiet anguish

in their embrace, she is pulled the knot taut while he is undoing it while cupping the side of her face

And they look at each other, her in anguish, him in ardency, both in love

Both accepted the fate that was to come

and then shortly thereafter he is killed…

#feathertexts #a huguenot on st bartholomews day

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I DONT GET IT IM LITERALLY DRINKING THE MAXIMUM AMOUNT OF WATER FOR AN ADULT MAN

AS AN 18 YEAR OLD GIRL

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The way some people can just cut you out from their life as if nothing ever happened, and its so abrupt and irrational that even you are caught off guard, cuz before this there were no signs that they were gonna do it and currently they show no trace that they did it. Its like you were never there in the first place. Really makes u wonder if people just get with you to fuck with your head snd then leave. It kinda scares me, ppl who can be so so consistent with their efforts in the beginning and make you feel totally secure and assured in their care, then they just open a trapdoor in the floor and unfollow you or block you. It’s fcking weird how they have so much control over themselves and the things and ppl they want to the point where they can just turn it off and forget. Or do they rly forget? Not sure. But as someone who’s actions are qlways pretty spontaneous and the opposite of calculative when it comes to affection and shit like that, this is pretty fucked.

Maybe that’s why i just cant get into it properly, the reason why im constantly second guessing my own feelings is probably bc i genuinely cant tell anymore from him what is calculated/deliberate and what isnt, just wish things could be simpler. Simpler like sneaking a glance finding him already looking. Yenickk’s mouth ajar, wide eyes trailing me across the busstop and up the flyover steps. Simpler like waving at Yenickk and him dazed and only noticing a fraction of a second too late. Him returning the wave, breaking into that apologetic, unbridled grin while doing so. Me bursting out laughing as an impulse because the situation and his face is ridiculous and ridiculously cute. Simpler like both of us breathless in the drinks aisle. I’m too soft, I’m mumbling. He takes off his mask to hear me better, yeah, he looks confused with himself too. I take mine off too and it makes no sense. With our masks off, the distance between both our faces somehow grown to be only centimetres apart.

We don’t talk as much as i do with Marcus, and all of this is nothing profound, it doesn’t happen as often as it does with Marcus. Yenickk certainly never asked me to call him before. I should be dwelling on so many other tidbits, pieces of conversation, or even something as simple as a glance, after all there has never been a shortage of these interactions with Marcus. But even still. Breathless in a convenience store. Starry, searching eyes that linger on the tip of a nose or a stray cupid’s bow. A sentence that drives for miles without a single full stop. Permeating, like a deceptively thin-looking liquid that when spilt, ends up staining both the inside of your purse and all your fingertips.

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I invited this guy to hang out at 7 eleven with me

It’ll either be very good or very bad

I may regret

I’ll update

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i literally just found out Americans spell judgement as judgment and i am so weirded out right now

#feathertexts #I thought google docs made a mistake #freaky!!

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somo is one freaky mofo wtf

#feathertexts #why are all his songs like this

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calling a movie terrible/unwatchable is bad enough but calling a movie manipulative is actually scathing. and most of the time its true

#feathertexts #i felt like this abt about time #these movies are the ones i hate the most

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Its the afternoon before my exam and there just was a bout of WINDY light rain. I stood in it and it blew through my clothes and my hair. that barely ever happens! usually strong winds come with storms. wow cool.

#rain updates #feathertexts #good luck charm?