#fuxkint kill me

[pixlokita]

-At the front desk of the doctor office-

Them: do you have a picture of the insurance card?

Me: yeah hold on -opens gallery-

Gallery: -full of sonadow and Fronnie artwork I saved-

Me: -freaking out deleting everything and shaking-

Them:

Them: you can just read the information out loud it’s ok…

#pix habla #end me #fuxkint kill me #im #I know I got red because my face was burning 😭😭😭😭😭 #NOOOOOOOO!?!!!! #Fronnie #sonadow #it wasn’t like inappropriate it’s just embarrassing #augh #im dead #fnaf #bye yall… #I’ll remember you all in therapy

[noskyatall]

tw suicide im aorry

do you know how much that hurts?? implying that i should be ashamed of my mental illness, ashamed that i'm not okay? i'm at the bottom of a fucking trash heap, either crying or numb, hating myself more than i thought was possible, i want nothing other than to kill my disgusting self or to have never been born in the first place. you're telling me not just that i need to fake being happy for you, but that i shouldn't tell anyone i know the truth about how i am. that i should hide that part of me because people will think i'm a "liability" and leave me.

but you know what hurts the most? you're right. i'm too much for everyone and i can't do anything right. all i do is hurt people and scare people away and make them want to escape me and i wish i could escape my fucking self that easily. i wish i cpuld walk away fro myself the way i know pepple want to because i wpuld i would id be gone id be dead i sont want to do this and im HERE BECAUSE I DONT WANT TO HURT PEOPEL BY DYINY. BUT IM HURTING PEOPLE BY LIVING SO WHATS THE FUXKINT POINT. WHAT AM I DOING EVERYTJINT IS EMPTY IM EMPTY AND I FEEL SO WORTHLESS I HATE EVERY INCH OF MYSELF AND I JUST WANT TO STOP BREATHING IM IN SO MUCH PAIN I HAVE NO ENERGY LEFT I BA E NOTHING I WANT TO LIVE FOR NOTHING THAT FEELS GENTLE NOTHONG THAT DOESNT STING OR ACHE OR SHRED ME TO PIECES. I JUST WANT TO HE DONE I JUST WANT TO DIE I JUST WANT TO TUEN OFF I DONT KNOW WHAT TO DO ANYMORE IT HURTS SO FUCKING MUCH GET ME OUT

IVE TRIED EVERYTHING IVE BEEN TOLD TO DO IM TRYING HARDER THAN IVE EVER TRIED WHY IS IT ENDLESS WHY DOES IT NEVER STOP HURTING