#god everything i hated abt masculinity on myself is so appealing on others like

[wrecking]

gonna be an insane yearner in the tags i think

#d #all i rly wanna say is just like. fuck. men are so god damn gorgeous #like i'm sorry but they get to look like THAT and i'm 'yikes' for liking them...? #like i'm ngl i was watching smth earlier and just like #god everything i hated abt masculinity on myself is so appealing on others like #i hated facial hair but now i love guys with it #earlier i was kinda just thinking abt the like texture feel of it and i was just like going insane from anguish likeeee #and their voices... their hands... every little thing is just so perfect #like just. idk i'm lovestruck with them at the moment and i wanna touch them and i want them to touch me god damn it #<- feels like the riskiest thing i've ever said on here but like you know what. i'm right #i'm finally at that point in my transition where i feel comfortable enough with myself to let someone else know me in that way #and as such i am like rapidly remembering how lonely and touch starved i am and certain guys atm are just like. a safe haven atm #i guess like a reminder that men like them do exist. there Are still people this unimaginably beautiful out there #i genuinely have to just look away sometimes bc i'm just overwhelmed by them like. ugh #in short i am a mess what else is new #sorry for mask off yearning posting on main but idgaf anymore #i am going to bed now (5am) and i'm putting down my phone so i can't be embarrassed abt this post until i get up later 🫡 #maybe if i try hard enough i can force a simulacrum of intimacy into my dreams. as a substitute for the real thing #(it probably won't work but i gotta try y'know)