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stiffyck · 1 year

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Hi!! Idk if you still want to hear abt the injuries, but I just got one of the dumbest ones in my menory earlier this week and wanted to share.

So I pick at my nails and the skin around my nails as a nervous habit. I also bite occasionally, but I'm trying really hard to break that habit. Unfortunately, in order to make breaking biting myself easier, I subconsciously have started picking more. Now, monday I had a benchmark in one of my classes that I completely forgot was happening until people were talking abt it at school.

So I'm just kind of idly picking at my skin, when the texture feels kinda different. And I'm like- what?? And I look down, and the area where I've been picking is white. And for whatever dumb reason, my instinct is to bite it off. Idk why, but before I could fully register what I was doing, I'd bitten the white skin clean off my finger. And there was just... honestly I have no idea how to explain what it looked like without going into body horror territory. If it helps you imagine it, my first thought was that I could use this as a reference to draw someone being taken over by fungus from the inside out (I want to clarify, I am not growing any sort of fungus. It just kind of looked like you could turn it into that if you used your imagination a bit.)

Uhh yeah, I just pretended it wasn't there for a day, but then I was complaining about it hurting at the end of fifth period yesterday, and one of my friends made me go to the nurse and get a bandage to cover it. So that's the story of how I picked/bit a freaking hole in my finger. It really hurts when I use my finger too much, you use your left ring finger a lot more than you think you do, trust me :')

(I'm like- 99.9% sure I'm not dying, please don't freak out. I'm not sure what it was underneath my skin, but I can assure you it didn't appear to be anything unnatural, that's just my imagination going extra. That being said, if anybody reading this happens to work/study in the medical field... should I be worried about this??)

Uh. What

(Also i think it could've been a wart??? Idk what you call them in english but i think thats it???? IDK MAN WHAT THE HELL)

#stiff talk #asks #sjsbdjdkw #idk what to tag thus #ask to tag ig

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yomiurinikei · 3 years

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1, 22, 5, 29, 37, and 31 !! for this or that!

1; hot chocolate or coffee?

coffee!!! i've offhandedly mentioned it a few times but we can't rlly. drink hot chocolate or chocolate milk^^;; so i like sweetened coffee!

5: strawberries or raspberries?

raspberries! strawberries r nice i just think it's,, maybe the texture? can throw me off sometimes...

22: walking or cycling?

walking! uh i usually pace for at least an hour each night, and i only... briefly was taught how to ride a bike, and my skills extend to. kinda knowing how to turn and that's abt it,,

29: mint or fruit?

fruit! uh i like fruit in general, and then i'm allergic to like... the roots used in most mint things? i can generally handle like.. peppermint, that kinda thing, like sweeter/lighter ones? but uh things like “"arctic winter freeze blast green spearmint <3″ rlly fuck me up - even opening a pack of gum in the same car as me makes me feel nauseous, and actually chewing it will make me nauseous enough that i have to like. stop everything and put my head between my legs to feel better

31: dark or white chocolate?

dark!!! mentioned this earlier but i like bittersweet chocolate,,, i think it's icelandic chocolate that i rlly like?

37: lemonade or coke?

mmm this ones harder, i don't rlly have strong feelings on either one? i have diet coke kinda often, but i don't like carbonation so i have to get it flat to drink it... sweet iced coffee gang rise up <3

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kae-karo · 5 years

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lmao so i thought someone asked for an analysis of the gwf vid like i could’ve sworn i had that ask so y’all just have to deal with me posting it anyway here ya go lads golf gone sexual™: the final edition

the fucking. the pirate outfits. the. i’m. i don’t. i can’t. (x) ‘left over from somewhere’

fucking phil ‘u lost ur stick last time i think’ yeah phil sure yeah sure okay buddy

‘choke me daddy festive edition’ @ dan pls stop

what cuties i love them just not actually knowing what they’re doing and messing it up and these awkward long pauses before they burst into a fit of giggles i love them

why did they even bring up the ‘winter update’ like it had no relevance??

crinkly boye

don’t worry i can host dan what are u even on about

phil out here coming up with a great vid name (yo ho ho) and they went with battle for the booty smh that says everything u ever need to know abt dnp

wow even in this year of 2018 we got yet another ur mum joke (and phil’s right we do love kath)

@ dan pls stop ur bf from making weird hand gestures okay that’s,,,,,it’s unnecessary

hi they cute

‘u absolute twit nipple’ how on earth does that still sound so fond what the fuck

and another ur mum joke wow i just,,,,wow

the way dan says ‘oh my god that was good’ like. he never sounds like that??? it’s a good sound he should sound like it more often idk it’s like soft and genuine in a sort of ‘wow i did okay??’ kinda cute surprised way??

‘stop talking about how close this is’ dan,,,,,,really u thought that was bad??? really??? really?????

phil’s deep-voiced yarr and dan’s literal only reaction being that he should’ve made a pun out of it leads me to believe philip does that deep voice often enough that dan is entirely unfazed and idk how i feel abt that

‘just bounced off the rim that’s how i like to play it, don’t go in, just bounce off it’ that cheeky fuckin smile daniel please can u not

lmao the pirate outfit is unlucky hm

hi i love dan’s lil trying-not-to-smile-but-just-about-to-smile smile when he’s staring at phil it makes me happy

how did they spend ten minutes (okay ten full seconds) trying to figure out the name of the wheel

dan: makes f/phat booty pun, phil: ‘they’re just filled with ass they’re not even coins’

same dan

important content

ik everyone’s said it by now but dan’s choice of adjective was great and i’m here for it (’gaily jumping off the ship’)

dan’s lil smile when phil’s ‘gaily adjusting his stance’

dimply boye

how does phil just blatantly ignore ‘phil’s edging us guys’ like idk i mean i hyperfocus too but like damn they really must just talk about that kind of stuff on a regular basis bc u don’t just tune that out y’know

phil’s distracted ‘that is so much ass’

‘yarrs’ carries the same energy as when dan made the ‘ain’t no gravy up in this kitch’ joke in the bunny biscuits vid and stared at phil and waited for his joke to be acknowledged

my kink is dan looking hilariously fond abt phil making bad sex-related comments (’it’s a strap-on’)

hey phil u know if u swear in another language it’s still swearing right?

did dan just absolutely commit to the harder flag?? without saying anything abt it? even though he lost?

phil just. out here. purposely almost-swearing. we stan

ik i saw this joke elsewhere but phil ur literally staring at a posh pirate mmkay b

i just wanna know what was going through dan’s head with ‘oingo boingo i’m a dick’ bc like. u okay there b??

ye dan we know ur geometry skills are quite lacking but glad the whole reference thing just keeps on coming up

‘they’re gonna do an exam about me and everyone’s gonna get an A star’ i mean that’s living in the phandom isn’t it? We all aspire to be phil trash, even though only One can hold the ultimate title

okay like take five seconds and take a step back they’re literally just playing golf i love how stupidly competitive they get it’s adorable

‘oh dear’ makin a comeback

plankspank.com why are they like this (at least phil didn’t buy the domain this time)

danny u have picked up ur husband’s habit of making a cawing noise whenever u get a birdie

why does he do this

physically in pain

fucking hell dan why do u have to make this so goddamn sexual i didn’t ask for this i didn’t want u talkin bout how it was a slow one and u put it in and jfc look i read phanfiction for a reason i don’t actually wanna know what ur sex life is like okay

britney spears references wow is it 2010 again or is that just all the foreplay golf,,,,,play,,,,,

dan,,,,,,,,

re: the tentacle: ‘that is gonna be right,,,,somewhere’ dan we got it u did not have to add ‘right in the poop deck’ and ur fucking noise okay we did Not need that

i lied earlier my kink is dan saying he cannot believe smth

this is just becoming a masterpost of all the weird faces dan makes

‘it’s part of the loser station for idiots who get everything wrong’ ???? dan help i can’t tell are u a seven y.o child who makes up mean insults when u lose or a twenty-seven year old adult who makes sex jokes n innuendos bc this vid is giving me mixed vibes

🎶🎶there she goes, there she goes again🎶🎶

awwwww matching nerds

dan n his fuckin squeaky i’m-making-fun-of-u voice

‘some people are just skilled booty raiders’ #dantops2k18

Important Dan Fact™ if u can see his lil corner of his mouth u can bet u could see his dimple on the other side and i’m suing bc we can’t see it

why did it take them like 3 tries to figure out they had to time it with the cannons i mean it’s like they’ve never played a vid game in their lives

bite it danny boy u know u want to u also know if it were the other way round phil would’ve bitten at dan’s finger

more dan face

phil absolutely going off topic with ‘sometimes i want to explore with fashion’ and dan’s immediate ‘oh do u now phil lmao’

‘so many textures out there’ he cute

i mean dan cute too but phil cute for sayin it

we stan boyfriends with literally the same brain whining abt lazy rivers and rude kids

hi sorry i just love watching phil when dan’s talking bc he pays so much attention like he used to not do that (back in the day) but like he just really turns and focuses on dan now and it makes me happy

i know we all adore dan’s ‘shut up’ but it always gives me life hearing phil tell dan to shut up

fond daniel

also phil’s super cute soft natural voice when he’s talking about how he keeps saying ‘watch this’

has phil ever gotten this frustrated with gwf lmao

‘bollocks’ as if that’s a thing they say

just kiss him phil goddamn i mean u wanna win right what better way to throw him off his game

why did maximum yeet have to become a thing i s2g

‘why am i helping’ bc u have absolutely no willpower and u want phil to be happy bc it makes u happy that’s why

why,,,,,,,why does everything satisfying have to be sexual phil, why. just. why. and then? golf gone sexual? as if that’s not a better title for the goddamn vid than ‘battle for the booty’ at least it’s accurate??? ‘battle for the booty’ i expect them dueling irl over who gets to top next or some shit that is why u call a vid ‘battle for the booty’

dan,,,,,,pls let ur bf make the weird noises okay

hi sorry what the Fuck is this

is that meant to be a monkey or some shit like what???????

that is a skeleton pirate thing what the hell

why does he have such a long face

idk they cute when they look at each other like they're like having a serious convo even tho they aren’t (although i wouldn’t be shocked if making puns is an important point of communication between them)

also fun fact i heard phil saying ‘jewel’ for the first like five times instead of duel

phil, realizing he’s said something he shouldn’t have

a cute

hi once again i love them

phil doing his face covering thing why does he always look at least 3x cuter when he’s doing it whilst staring at dan

‘i got the octopus, he’s gonna marry me, we’re gonna have tentacle hooked babies with parrots on the crib’

same dan same

and then he turns around n says ‘spank me with a plank and call me poopy susan’ wtf is wrong with them

‘u love a good tentacle don’t u’ show me where i asked

dan, actually considering how that would feel with all the tentacles:

how did they go from phil saying ‘you love a good tentacle’ to saying ‘(you/we) should get some of those’ to dan saying ‘no, you shouldn’t’ like uhm. wot

this

#dnp #dan and phil #dapg #danandphilgames #phan #golf with friends #pirate edition #vid analysis #moonshine gifs #kt #and yes to the person that asked for an analysis for the heartthrob vid #that's coming give me like ten mins lmao

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aitian · 3 years

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Sun 2/28 3:06am

watched a lot of crime shows lately. good girls, ginny & georgia, those kinds of crimes that happen in nice places, done by nice ppl. or like, suburban dystopia & rats on the countertops.

up late last night watching tv- been really good & sleeping early for the last two weeks, waking up early too. but i woke up around 1pm today with plans to go do something, anything, with mom, hang out somewhere or smth. last weekend we went to altoona with dad too, & walked around the mall & ate kfc in the car before driving back. mom got a call from alice & sat on my bed with me, & we talked abt her residency match stuff & whatever. idk i think i was saying smth silly, maybe abt altoona last week, & felt like we were abt to end the call, & mom said she needed to tell us smth important. & she told us that grandma passed away last week, on wednesday. she died in the morning, & it snowed for the first time in a while that day in luoyang. its a good sign, peaceful passing. i started crying, & i heard moms voice start to break, & on the phone alice’s face begin to turn red. just like tears leaking out of my eyes, i didnt even feel the squeezing or any of the feelings in my head before i began crying. i guess its just one of those things that happens on its own. in my head i was thinking abt how i didnt think i would cry at this news, or actually thats wrong, of course i would. maybe it was just unexpected how easy & tender my body was to those words, & smth slow moving so far away, its aftermath, & the quietness of the ceremony i have never been a part of & always been a part of. i didnt know grandma well. i have a vague memory of being kind of mean and childish during the longest time we were together, around 2007 or 2008. and again, feeling so lost in 2018 seeing her and grandpa so old, feeling their days go by with difficulty. it always felt like the numbness of separation would shield me from tears like these. sociopath immigrant kids with no past, no access or interest in those things that hold us down. relieved thats not me. im not stupid enough to think that theres some sort of genealogical magic or fetish teaching that will set me free. its all here though, with nuance, in the moments that im living. that feels big, & free, & scary too. im thinking abt the clouds moving through the sky today. rly existential sometimes these days, sudden panic & the like, mostly thinking abt mom not being here someday. that hurts so bad.

after the call we hugged, & i cried more, & mom talked about how those great people, the greats, wei da de ren, were by her side. & things about how those days when it was the six of them, mom, two uncles, grandma, grandpa, & great grandma, all living in one house, she always felt, even at the time, that those were the happiest days of her life. it means a lot for a small family to be under one roof. (& earlier on the call, it means a lot for a person to take care of themself. i felt sad, or almost a bit irritated when mom said that on the call, that its a lesson we should learn from grandma that its important to take care of ourselves, as if there is a moral to smth like this, or smth so simple to gain, & i know its bc she wanted to be someone who could say that to her kids in a moment like this, & she feels the same way as i do, & even more, abt the vastness of this moment.) when mom told dad on thursday he cried, & then said some stupid shit abt how they shouldnt have stayed. she didnt tell alice on the phone but she told me. when would dad ever offer a comforting word? he has been so shitty & annoying these past few days, bickering & teasing & doing things to make mom angry like any other time. we also talked abt some stupid stuff like how xiao yu ah yi made yuan xiao in jiu niang, some meat & some black sesame all together, with diced carrot & corn in the soup that mom & dad tried to eat for breakfast. we ended up leaving the house around 3 after eating some breakfast.

mom drove to the golf course by waffle shop, & we got out of the car on that path that leads to the IST bridge. talked abt how golf is so dumb & we just wanted to walk on their field. went a little down the path until it met the road, & walked down the road for a bit. mom said she didnt want to retrace our steps so i said we could just take a circle and walk on the grass. there was still a lot of snow, around 4 inches where it was deep but the tops of the hills were bare. took some photos. mom smiled really natural & pretty, like i dont see her doing well when posing, & she thought so too. we ran a little bit, & stopped after we got to the top of a hill. i was looking at the sky, really blue & sunny & mostly filled with white clouds, blowing by. they were moving fast & steady, like that memory i have of feeling them go by. so wonderful. i felt the ground beneath my feet in that moment, like an animal standing on a hill, born from thos big breathing thing, moving as a small & big part of it, it moving as a vast part of me, above & below me. it means so much that these moments we spend together . just that. we made our way back to the car & decided to go to home goods. we poked around & looked at stuff, & by the time we got to the furniture half of the store i felt kinda tired so we found an ottoman to sit on. & we were talking abt the texture of the fabrics on the chairs & stuff, & decided to just go to loves (where wolfs furniture went out of business, advertising a total liquidation sale recently) & look at sofas. im laying on it right now. we sat on everything downstairs, then sat on stuff upstairs. & we sat on the one before this & mom was like, this could be the one, & i said we shoould keep looking, & mom sat on this one, & mom said this is the one. & she called a sales associate over & he asked what her question was, & she said she didnt really have one. she wanted to buy this sofa. also, whats the final price? the tag said smth like 2000 as the discounted price, & the guy said 1400. & mom said we/ll take it, & we did. mom got shoe covers from amys mom for when the movers came, & we moved the old sofa out of the way into the guest room (dad took the door off & we tilted in every direction). then i played some genshin co-op with sherry in my room & we called & chatted abt stuff while the moving happened. it got quiet after moving & my phone ran out of battery & i went downstairs & we ate hot pot. new couch. life. i think im going to sleep here tonight. it smells like new couch, & i think i liked this smell on our old couch but it just smells kinda smelly to me now. feels like when we travel, or moved houses, or something like that. the feeling that life is changing a lot, or we are making changes, moving about, being changed, becoming changed.

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velteris · 7 years

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Something I still don't get: why is Ange's hair grey? She was blonde as a kid. Did she dye it? Is she just really stressed?

hm! i havent rly settled on an explanation myself either but theres a lil bit of evidence for everything really… just building on what u’ve already said:

1. she went grey from stressi mean… i think scientifically this has been p much debunked as an actual possible thing? but also that angst potential is. mmmhm !!!

2. she dyed itit would certainly b part of her effort to keep herself incognito while over in the royalty-hating commonwealth, but also speaking as someone who has purble hair? dyeing your hair is a Pain In The Ass. if she’s dyeing it, she must be really really good at touching up her roots (tho there’s some lovely fanfic material right there).

there’s also the problem with her living in the spy dorms at the Farm, like they must be aware that she’s dyeing her hair, you can’t possibly keep it to yourself. i guess there’s some advantage to being able to cut it and grow your hair back out for a new Look if you need to lie low for some months. that said, it leaves a lot of traces - dyed hair over time kinda gets that chemically-meddled-with texture, the dye often leaves scent, every time you wash your hair it stains your shower/bath/towels, heck even when you’re in the act of dyeing it you often leave traces on yourself especially if you’re doing it close to the scalp. none of these r very conducive to keeping a low cover on some cases.

lastly: if she were dyeing it, she should have stopped for Operation Changeling, as part of the effort to convince her superiors that she rly could replace Princess - look how similar their hair colours are! sort of thing.

imma still write an ange dyeing her hair tho, imma still do it

3. her hair was always meant to be grey, she was just a blonde kidi have friends who went from very blonde to brownish-blonde, and from reddish-blonde to brown, so it’s possible? anime being anime ofc no one bats an eye at a teenage girl with grey hair so it could just be Genetics™

some quic pics of the royal family; the first one is from Way Back When, n we can see that family members range between Ange/Princess-level light hair (the boy, the lady to the left) and dark hair; notably, both the Queen and the Duke seem to have lightened hair in the present. the Queen’s especially interesting bc she went from brown to blonde, not brown to grey, whereas u could say the Duke just went grey from age. but that grey’s also the exact same shade of grey Ange has.

(current Princess left, current Ange right) - u can see that Ange had hair that was slightly less… warm? so maybe, maybe, it’s part of why her hair greyed over time.

4. my improbable but angsty theory: cavorite poisoning

ok i admit im pulling this one out of my ass a bit but just think abt the Potential!! the Angst!!! the fact that they’ve explained basically nothing about the cavorite means i can do whatever i want with it!!!!!

i’ve already forgotten his name, is it eric? im just gonna use eric. eric and his sister have different hair colours. now we can b boring and just say thats genes for ya, orrr we can b extra and say that cavorite poisoning fucked up the girl’s hair too!! and i feel like, yknow, changing hair colour is probably an earlier symptom than changing eyes to glowy green, so maybe? maybe???? we can claim ange went grey from preliminary use of the handheld cavorite before they fine tuned it? zelda obvs got the final product

i know its weak but im just partial to the idea of ange being irrevocably changed by her spywork, not only in mind but also in body

#velter answers #princess principal #its fantasy mineral i can do whatever i want!!!#anonymous

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