#god the choice to make luke her twin and theo her older sister is going to chew my up inside forever

[dragqueenpentheus]

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#just finiahed reading haunting of hill house and have been crying so hard for a half hour i still thibk i might throw up #FOR SOME REASON AFTER SEEING HOW MUCH THEY CHANGED FOR THE SHOW I WAS STILL GUT PUNCHED WITH THE CHOICE THEY DID DECIDE TO KEEP. AND #ITS #YEAH #5stars easy one of the best books ive read ever let alone this year jesus #nel is going to stay in hill house and my heart in ways that are so new and devistating meeting her a second time #i gotta buy a beautiful copy of this book #and then also a cheap one to draw and write and highlight all over #FULL sobs. i have put the book down and cant bring myself to hit the return button for the library because #she. she just wanted to be seen and wanted andD I. CANT CONTRIBUTE TO THE PEOPLE WHO TOLD HER TO LEAVE. NOT YET. #watch me get matching stone lion tattoos for her #jessssus this was a hell of a thing #the show was hard this one was somehow harder #both stunning. obv. #god im gunna have to rewatch and rip myself apart w the easter eggs wont i #later. not yet. #if i think about them being her literal family members too hard my eyeballs will burst out of my head #irl #personal #god the choice to make luke her twin and theo her older sister is going to chew my up inside forever #mike i have several thousand questions would u like to sit down and discuss