#gonna lobotomize myself I swear 😤

[synchronmurmurs]

8, 15, and 21! (I can't remember if I've sent you questions already, but if I did, you can ignore the extras lol! Been running around all day and I've lost track of whom I've sent questions to! Tumblr needs an outbox function!)

Ahh no, I only did reblog this particular ask meme once. Though I did sorta like... do a double take and have to think twice when you said you weren’t sure. 😶💦

8) favorite genre to write

Comedy, or something lighthearted in nature, I think. 🤔 More than anything, I just really like being able to make people laugh. It’s probably why I act like such a clown in view of the public. You know, playing up the reactions for a laff and all that. It’s just... I’unno, a nice feeling, I guess. Born to die, world is a fuck, and all that. Gotta make some room to have some fun in it all, right?

15) why did you start writing?

I think the easiest answer for this is “because there were things/situations I wanted to explore, and daydreams I wanted to give some permanence to”. My very first published piece of writing for DMC - the first chapter of Medley - is something I thought about for a long time before I just threw caution to the win and took a crack at this writing thing for myself.

Now look where I am. Projects for days, with no end in sight. Every morning I wake up, and the WIPs and projects grow. 🙃

But as far as Credo and Higashi goes, I write for them because nobody else fucken is 😤😤😤 A bitch gotta write her own gotdamn porn, and given how I normally view my own work, I can’t even enjoy it at the end of it all 😭😭

21) what do you think when you read over your older work?

Honestly? I very rarely do read my older work. I can’t explain why, but as soon as I hit post, whatever I submitted becomes Major Cringe for me, and I can’t bear to look at it again. There are only a very small number of pieces I’ve done that don’t make me feel this way, and I can’t really single out the thread that connects them. Reading through it for the purpose of editing is fine, I’m totally okay up until that point, but after that? When it’s finally up for other people to see? Yo I just can’t deal with it. It does not exist anymore. I do not see it.

...I guess Cringe™ is what I think then?

#answer: rubixa-seraph #ask sync #ask meme #like I see other people hyping up their own work #and I just... I can't even do *that* lol #what if it doesn't meet those expectations? #what if it's just shite? #imposter syndrome is fucking stupid #gonna lobotomize myself I swear 😤 #I have to preface everything I do with 'I hope' and 'I tried to do this BUT' #it sucks lmao #no confidence in myself at all 🙃