#imposter syndrome is fucking stupid

[ruthlesslistener]

watching strange aeon's videos on crazy-ass fanfiction writers pretending to be people they're not in both fascinated disgust and also somehow getting imposter syndrome bc ocd is like...omg...what if WE really were a super dramatic toxic faker who uses his minority status to get clout points sure is an Experience:tm:

#beating said ocd with a broom bc its so fuckin stupid #I KNOW FOR A GODDAMN FACT IM PERSIAN BRAIN YOU CANT IMPOSTER SYNDROME YOUR FUCKING ETHNICITY SKJDHFGB

[melioradeluxe]

was feeling super bad for writing a fic of 2250 words (still not fucking finished...) for an event. for a specific prompt but then i remembered. i can do whatever the hell i want

#SHUT THE HELL UP BRAIN #literally this bitch aint about to make me feel BAD FOR WRITING #go away #i felt bad bc i've never participated in such an event before and idk if it's okay to write so muuuuch but no im done with that #the point is to write. gtfo w the imposter syndrome #my god like this is for fun and im getting worried over the most stupid shit #like the specific prompt is still IN the fic so i dont understand why i have to feel like i only have to write about that. #im building the fucking thing. #and if ppl don't like it then???? idc???? okay??? #god!!!!! SHUT UP #im fine. this fic is driving me crazy for many reasons but. im okay #RANT OVER !!!!!!!!! #not fandom #text

[pissfizz]

I’m going to lose my mind oh my god I am so scared for this quincenera wtf

#NOT MINE BTW I MISSED MY CHANCE LMAO #but Jesus Christ family I’ve never met before flying in from Panama…. god I’m so scared #I’ve already been dealing with some wack ass imposter syndrome ass shit cuz of how I was raised this is gonna make it SO MUCH worse #I DIDNT EVEN KNOW PANAMANIANS GOT QUINCES #i was raised with almost zero influence from any culture whatsoever I wasn’t even raised close to that side of the family #and like I’m mixed with white but I can’t even use that as an excuse cuz the cousin who’s quince it is is also mixed #and that side of the family is super tied to the culture and they speak Spanish and shit #i don’t even speak Spanish even if the family from Panama doesn’t think ima. total embarrassment what if most of them don’t speak english #when I’m surrounded by white people 24/7 I feel like a total outlier but the second I’m around anyone else latine I feel like that but WORSE #i don’t speak Spanish I don’t know anything about the culture I’m from the fucking pacific northwest and do digital art and watch anime #i am so far completely removed from everything I’m gonna be sick #my grandma is already so judgy about stuff my uncle was even WORSE and made fun of the stuff that was too white or too American about me #my cousins throwing the party are the least of my worries cuz at least their mixed and second/third Gen too #but oh my god the family I’ve never met before I’m so scared I’m so scared #i was already thinking like. can I even call myself latine bc of how I was raised and how far removed I am from everything. I’m mixed so - #-should I just associate myself more with the white side of my family. am I being fraudulent by identifying with that term just bc I have - #-the blood is that even enough maybe that kid had a point when he said I shouldn’t count as hispanic if I don’t know spanish #and thinking about showing up to my cousins quince as. me. it’s terrifying it’s awful I want to go I want to meet these people I want to - #-celebrate my cousin and be happy for her but GOD what if everyone hates us and just tolerates us cuz we’re related to them #i would say we’re the black sheep of the family but I feel like white is more fitting cuz I feel like we’re just slightly brown white people #god god god I’m so stresssd out by this #is this a weird thing to be worried about is this stupid is this selfish #and to make matters worse I DONT KNOW WHAT TO GET HER FOR A GIRT #vent

[thatone-churro]

i literally peaked with that queer rage poem i’ll never write something that good again

#i got such high praise from my professor and it kicked the imposter syndrome into overdrive #that’s the curse of thriving on praise & being motivated by it but never believing you’ll live up to that praise again #i swear to god being a gifted kid fucked me up BAD #i don’t even know if that’s what i can pin this on this time but i will blame that shit until the end of time ☝️ #grace being stupid #text post #personal

[bucketofchum]

Been dealing with some really bad self esteem shit lately...

#had big cries today #still kinda teary #basically imposter syndrome to the max #except like you know how imposter syndrome suggests you actually DO belong somewhere? #idk I just feel really stupid and like a fake #and im scared im doing bad shit #I'm afraid im in the wrong field #like I don't belong here #things with my supervisor have been meh #he has hinted at it a bit but maybe i read too much into it idk #the suggestion that I might be in the wrong field #and I feel it bc I feel so fucking stupid all the time #like I never know what I'm doing #and I don't even have anything to validate myself #just feeling like shit #like I don't belong #it's hard bc people always say everyone is like that - everyone is faking it #except I am SEEING people NOT faking it #im SEEING people do the right thing that i don't know how to do #and I feel so stupid #im just scared #idk #personal vent

[curiosity-killed]

y’all ever notice how imposter syndrome will have you picking the most unhinged dialogue option

[ALT ID: A four panel comic done with simple colors and no lines. The first panel shows a young black woman in a hot pink hoodie on an airplane, asking “Oh! Are you a ballerina?” The next panel shows a brunette white woman sitting in the window seat of the same airplane row, sewing pointe shoes and looking caught off guard. She says, “...no...” uncertainly while a text box below points to the pointe shoes in her hands and says, “Pointe shoes I am sewing for the Nutcracker.”

The next panel shows a blonde white woman standing in what appears to be a minimally-sketched cafe and holding a coffee. She asks, “Excuse me, are you a dancer?” The next panel shows the brunette from before but now wearing her hair up in a bun and carrying a bag with pointe shoes, a foam roller, and water bottle. She says, “uhhh...sort of?” while an additional text box points to her and says “literally just came from dance class.]

#pour one out for every stranger who's sat next to me on a plane #and asked if i was an artist #and received a variation of the response ''not really'' while i am actively. drawing. #my doodles #anyway these are unfortunately real experiences #but this type of interaction is my number 1 cure for imposter syndrome #bc it sounds so fucking stupid to say you're not an X while you are doing the thing an X does

[kafus]

i have had multiple people tell me that they think i should make scripted youtube videos because i seem like i’d be good at it and tbh i agree and i have no shortage of things to say and talk about but unfortunately i am terrified of the youtube environment and my blood pressure increases whenever i have a youtube notification because i am praying no one is arguing with me on a comment i left on a post years ago. i have no idea why youtube is the only site i have this intense anxiety around. if i get over it i’d love to tho

#there’s also the added bit of imposter syndrome and like #worrying that even though i’m confident in what i’m speaking about #maybe i’m stupid and had the wrong idea all along #publicly fucking up like that would suck #kiki was here #kiki.txt

[lllsaslll]

I forgot Tumblr is (barely) my only safe place to vent

#i feel like im getting fucking pounded and slapped left and right today with reminders of how little my worth is #and on top ofbthe physical pain. what joy #work is treating me like an afterthought...but only bc im an entitled baby who doesnt know how to stand up for herself or communicate #my brain is so choked of enrichment & badically in survival mode that the thought of things that r suposed to bring me joy just piss me off #im too fucking chicken shit to take advantage of the dream oportunities that dropped in my lap bc idk imposter syndrome i guess #and the newest blow... #the mesures ive taken in the past to help maintain my mental health aparently have cracks in them i.e. blocking that person doesnt seem to #be enough bc i just got slapped in the fucking face with all their goddamn glory and success and ya know im so happy for them #but my brain only lets me see it as a reminder of what i could have. what i am physically capable of is i wasnt me. #with my stupid fucking emotions and my stupid fucking fear and my stupid fucking lack of knowledge. #...i love having to stop while writing this and run to the bathroom in the middle of the office bc im goddamn crying in the club. again #and i love having to just vent here bc ive used all my ~pity me~ and ~complain about my life~ cards for the day. week. month. year... #my mom was right #im ugly. no one cares. and im going to die alone.

[heirloommtomatoes]

graduating soon and i am so. unbelievably anxious and terrified every second of every day <3

#idek of what! #and i feel so wimpy and coddled for being so afraid but i'm so afraid1 #!* #:( #i'm so scared of failing #i'm scared of failing myself i'm scared of failing other people #i'm scared of being broke the rest of my life in a dead-end job i hate #i'm scared of not having any time for anything anymore #i feel awful #i feel like my life is ending instead of beginning #which is sooo dramatic and untrue etc etc but i just feel like. imposter syndrome but for life in general #ellie yodels #i think i'll be back home soon and feel better then. i'll have a job and feel better then. maybe hopefully. idk. #i feel so much pressure all the time #nothing feels like the right thing to do besides like. move to my partner's city and move in with him. #but in order to do that i need a job that allows me to do that. and i have quite literally 0 fucking dollars. #and i feel so stupid.

[ghosttownwherenoonegoes]

tw; negative vent in tags </3

#i feel like i'm not smart enough for this #i'm somewhere i dont belong and no one's figured it out yet #(hello imposter syndrome) #and i still have a week of work to catch up on before i can start the paper #which is literally due in 3 days and i havent started it yet #bc i'm tryna catch up #got up at 5 and started studying at 630am today #and now it's noon 30 and im still going #done a lot today but still so much to go #time is running out and chest is tight and my job's eating my academic ambitions alive #feel like it's all too late & i should just quit my degree #jesus fucking christ i;m too stupid for this

[daydreamerwonderkid]

Once my imposter syndrome finally dies down, it's over for all you bitches

#dreamer talks #imposter syndrome #i am legit struggling so hard with this right now #that it's starting to feel so fucking stupid #like why am i like this #why am i so stressed out #about writing and doing art for fun? #haven't been able to touch my WIPs for over a week now #because of how shitty my brain is making me feel

[thatone-churro]

me: i’m gonna start posting my poetry for people who might like it.

people: we really like these poems!

me: you’ve gotta be lying.

#this isn’t about the people who do like my stuff i appreciate you!! this is about my stupid fucking imposter syndrome lmao #grace being stupid #text post #personal

[purrality]

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#god fuck i dont even want to read it i. it scares me so much that i just dont remember this literally JUST happened #what the fuck #why do i forget how much i forget hahaha #i feel like im gonna lose it #every time i start to think maybe it's not real for some reason or the other #god what lmao am i forgetting i have imposter syndrome too or smth #fucking christ #feels like my head wants to burst #apparently maybe it actually does lmao! #fucking stupid #stop trying to tell me not to say shit #fuck off #sysjournaltemp #ah. okay #not how i wanted to do this but i guess none of us get to be happy today #yeah. WOULD have been nice to just sleep #but apparently we're doing this now instead #fucking do you want me to do this or not #whats the point if youre gonna be a hypocrite about it #you think anyone gives a shit? #yeah im fucking fed up #want me to play nice but wont even listen to me #well you listen to this #come back to it if you need #or ill just tell you again. you know. #ugh #im sorry.

[thecheshirerat]

You know those moments where you realize that there is a Pattern and Parallels and Commonalities betwixt your most favorite blorbos and you just start. Levitating

#anyway GLaDOS 🤝 Lucretia #<- weird relationships with the moon; voiceless companions with a strange relationship to their own name; ethically debatable motives #; tell jokes to people and tease them when in reality they just want to scream ‘I LOVE YOU’; #are the only ones who Remember (and the others Do Not); #edit their own stories; edit other peoples stories; make the tough call; have many regrets; want to get things done; #tell themselves it’s for the greater good; queen of swords energy; notably stopped ‘championing other peoples heroism’ to take matters #into their own hands; #fucked relationship to the passage of time; #dead girlfriends; #make people do really dumb tests; #come up with stupid names for their organizations shit; #put up with no bullshit (except their own) #sitting here vibrating WHAT THE FUCKKKKK #SCIENTISTS #THEYRE BOTH FUCKING. CONFIDENT EXTERIOR BUT THE IMPOSTER SYNDROME. #ABABAHABAHAHAHHWHEWHEHSHSHSHDHHDIRIRJEJWNEJE #I HAVE DISCOVERED HIDDEN SECRETS OF THE UNIVERSE #cheshi squeaks

[afrenomes]

Not me thinking about wylan’s backstory and realizing i relate to it so much 🫣

#well-off yet fucked up family? check #people think you’re spoiled and pampered for no reason when in reality you’re struggling just to stay alive? check #disability that has made you feel stupid and lazy (esp. family members making u feel that way)? check #major imposter syndrome? check #never able to meet your parents’ standards? check #getting punished as a kid by your parents for not meeting impossible (for you) standards? check #and the list goes on… #ship makes a personal post #i think that’s why i got so attached to wylan so quickly #i mean his story is far more extreme but i feel it’s still so relatable to my life

[aberooski]

I've not been able to draw a single damn thing that isn't complete ass the last few days my mind just doesn't work anymore 😭

#I just wanna draw stupid silly things but I'm incapable of putting anything I picture in my head onto the page 😭 #I drew almost exclusively with references in high school whenever I tried to draw anything and I think that fucked up my brain #I mean if y'all saw my GX/Mario panels I can clearly draw without looking at stuff I did those like 99% on my own but it's super hard #ugh I wanna actually be able to draw I have such powerful fuckin imposter syndrome when I ever do draw anything #like who am I to say I can draw? #abby's self deprication hour #wake up babe new tag dropped #abby attempts to draw