#he was going to make a special modpack just for me with all my favorites but he kept putting it off for literally years

[sugared-violets]

ugh i'm stuck in this awful limbo where some small part of me is still hoping he'll come back and apologize for everything and love me again even as most of me genuinely wants to never see his face again

#like. he RARELY showed me any real affection but #the good times were really truly good #and im going to be so lonely for the rest of my life #he hurt me and ignored me and made me cry more often than not but he was also the only person i could be completely myself #i told him everything. so many things not one single other person knows about me #and nobody else will ever care to know #he was mean and awful but he let me ramble about whatever i liked and he even claimed to enjoy listening #everyone else ive ever been friends with just calls me talkative #he stole every single one of my firsts and dumped me in the middle of the night without showing a single emotion about it #but i've never slept better than i did in his arms and he's the only person to ever think im attractive #he was going to make a special modpack just for me with all my favorites but he kept putting it off for literally years #honestly he was probably never going to do it #and speaking of which ill never be able to play modded games again because he did all of that for me and i didnt/dont understand it at all #he took so much from me just because he didn't want to put in the effort to love me anymore #dani.txt #vent post #im just. heartbroken. there's rlly no other word for it