#hfbdjfbfhfhrh. head full many thoughts.

[prince-of-calydon]

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#just venting down here i guess #tw vent #dont reblog #this is about the thebaid musical #filling this up with extra tags just in case you don't wanna see my problems lmao #lately ive been feeling like. all of this was for nothing idk #i know my music isn't the best but my brain hasn't been very nice to me as of late #it's trying to convince me that all my songs sound the same and they're not even rock they're just pop with a rock guitar soundfont urhrjgjf #made even worse by my rejection sensitivity taking constructive criticism from my friends on the lyrics #and turning it into 'it sucks it bad booo we hate it why did you make this' #and i have to do a presentation on it bc it's school funded??? i have to show my music to tens if not hundreds of people??? #idk. it's fucking me up and i'm wondering if im capable of doing anything that ISNT marketable to children. #I've also never been too fond of my singing voice and now this whole project is just demo after demo after demo and sometimes it sounds good #and other times it sounds like I should just trash it #hfbdjfbfhfhrh. head full many thoughts.