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#hired to run or trained for and frankly don't have time to run properly either. so every week just starts w me in our weekly meeting being a
gentlethorns
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fuck dude i have got to find a job where i can be self-employed and creative. i cannot be in fucking retail hell anymore
#she bork
#tbd
#like now i don't deal w customers which is cool but now that i work at like a big retail store and not a little mall outlet the pressure is
#insane. and i have bosses who never say good job or thank you and who have set me up to fail by throwing a department on me that i was not
#hired to run or trained for and frankly don't have time to run properly either. so every week just starts w me in our weekly meeting being a
#fucking piñata like 'why didn't you get this done 🤨 you need to manage your time better 🤨 you're losing sales 🤨' and i'm like i'm trying!!!!
#what more can i do!!!!!! and then the side of it i actually kind of enjoy (which is what i was originally hired to do) is very very hard on
#my body bc it's a very physical job (i run the team that unloads the trucks every day and like i'm usually helping unload bc i'm not just
#gonna stand there and watch while my team busts their asses lol) and now i'm finding out that it's actually not normal to wake up every day
#w your joints screaming and stiff and that i might have a chronic condition (doctor is thinking some sort of chronic inflammatory arthritis
#but i won't know if my imaging and blood tests showed anything until like mid-june) and i'm like. so even the part of my job that i don't
#mind as much is not good bc it's like actively destroying my body. okay sick 🤠 and i don't wanna quit bc i've only been there for like
#eight months and this job would be really valuable on a resume but i don't want it to look like i'm a job hopper or like i'm fickle or
#unreliable. so i'm stuck here for a while i think. but the pressure is destroying me mentally and i know i need to find a position somewhere
#else that is 1. not fucking goddamn retail bc retail will always be hell and 2. not management bc i don't see myself ever really getting
#into upper management but lower/middle management gets shit on the most so if i go somewhere else and end up in middle management i'll be
#right back to wanting to kill myself in a matter of months. basically i'm tired of expectations and pressure and stress and i'm tired of
#waking up at fucking 2:30 every morning just to go in and get shit on and destroy my body all over something that in the end i do not fuckin
#care about. i need to make art and be held accountable by only myself. idk i've been toying w the idea of learning how to tattoo and trying
#to start establishing some artistic skill so maybe eventually i can do that? not now bc the economy sucks and that's scary lol and anyway i
#have to give myself some time to actually learn the skill and perfect a style. but it makes decent money (at least before the expense of
#supplies and taxes) and allows you to travel and still work and also it would be fun. and i could tattoo myself so it would cut some
#expenses for me since i cannot stay away from the damn needle. idk lol i need to save some money before i buy a tattoo gun or anything but
#i'm considering it bc i am going fucking crazy rn and ik this feeling will leave me eventually but i also know it will come back bc it
#always does. and i'm tired of just surviving and just making it through every day and every week like i want to be happy and this is just
#not doing it for me anymore
#ugh fuck why couldn't i have been born w a brain that likes numbers and code and technology. i love being an artist but it makes finding a
#sustainable career really difficult bc i feel so restless and miserable when i'm stuck in a passionless job but my passions are not
#particularly profitable. hate it here why wasn't i born a capybara no job no responsibility just squint and squeak and sun
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