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stayarmytinyzenmoa-l · 2 years

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a bit of a break from the normal reading but how did you get the idea for this story? like,, it has so many complicated twists and turns and i just want to see your thought process of going about this story ahdfjn

Oh man, this is gonna be a long one but let me walk you through it hehe, also major spoilers for the original Zemblanity below.

Flashback to June 2nd of 2020, when Kun's Awaken teaser dropped. As soon as I saw that teaser I thought "hm, I can make a fic out of this" so I opened my little outline app thing and started outlining his character and as all the other Awaken teasers dropped I started filling in for the other members. I'll have to dig for it, but I remember making a post about it on the old blog if anyone would be interested in the concept and I got a lot of feedback so I figured sure why not. Back then Zemblanity had a completely different concept, though. I'm not joking when I tell you guys I picked apart those teasers and the MV, I even watched them slowed down to get whatever little details I could about their concept to shove it into the outline somewhere.

My original plan for it was for Sector V to be akin to an asylum, hence the specific disorders I had back then, but then I scratched that idea and instead looked to complexes. For example, I originally planned for Kun to have this sort of God Complex, I planned for Xiaojun to have a Martyr Complex and so on so forth, you can probably catch some of those hints in the original Zemblanity, though. Either way, I originally planned for the big reveal to be that they were never on the moon at all, no, and (Y/N) was one of the asylum's patients. Kun was supposed to be her main doctor, Ten was the patient she shared a room with, and so on so forth. The point of this is that Zemblanity had a dark theme since the outlinings, I just changed the plot significantly as I went around.

Onto when I actually started writing the fic. 2020 wasn't a very happy year for me, for anyone really. And this wasn't even the crux of the fic. I spent about twenty days outlining it then, June 22, 2020, I dropped the first chapter. This first chapter followed my original draft and it got a lot of attention, both good and bad. With all of the asks and replies I got, I started making changes. I went into this fic with the idea of it being strictly thriller, and I came out with some elements of romance, but despite y'all simping in my inbox for certain inmates, I remembered to go back to this fic's roots. Mystery and thriller, I had to keep you all on your toes. Then, as 2020 continued and my mental state, to put it bluntly, plummeted, I turned to Zemblanity to write out my frustrations. I've said it a couple of times before, but writing is sort of like a therapeutic thing for me. Throughout 2020 I was just angry all the time, I was so pissed, I was so lonely, I had all these emotions and no one to talk about it with so I channeled that into a fanfiction and, hey, looks like you guys liked it, haha

In the first run of Zem, I made twists for the heck of it. Xiaojun knowing everything, for example. The locket, for another. Etc, etc. But now, with that original under my belt, I'm fixing up this rewrite so that there's just so much more re-read value, the twists make sense, and the suspicions arise. I made so many huge plot changes and so many huge jumps between the year long run that it just got messy at one point and it was so far from my original outline that the final product was just different. A lot of what happens in my fics and how they end is based on everyone's asks and how they perceived the characters. Sicheng, for example, was supposed to be a much darker character but you all liked him so much so how could I ruin y'all like that? Outlining this story was a real bitch though, let me tell you, and in the end I even strayed super far away from it. All the twists and turns had to be calculated and placed correctly, and in my original plan they were, but as things changed I realized "oh shit I can't use this twist anymore" or "oh man, I might need to establish this now before it's too late" it was all a hodgepodged mess that I'm trying to fix now haha

Either way, a lot of this fic was malleable, it went through so much changes as my own mental state fluctuated all over the damn place. All I knew was that I wanted to make a fic that would be fun to read, one of those fics that you can't put down until you were done with it, and I think I did pretty good for the most part.

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