#i am not something like a fucking endogenic system either- i know i dont have anything like did or osdd

[batsbolts-andfangs]

I'm tired of people assuming wrong shit about fictionkin. I'm tired of having to hide the fact that I'm a fictionkin because I don't want people to assume that I'm an IRL or that I'm something else entirely. I am just fictionkin. And I don't talk about it for reasons.

#🐺︴howling #alterhuman #fictionkin #alterhumanity #i am not something like a fucking endogenic system either- i know i dont have anything like did or osdd #i am just fictionkin with many kintypes #this is no shade to systems btw /gen‚ this is in reference to a post where someone assumed being a fictkin is the same as an endogenic sys #sorry if none of these tags make sense

[trans-leek-cookie]

The most normal blog on Tumblr dot com. You can kill me with an axe to take my title

hi. I'm some guy on the internet

I dont really have a name I go by online so just call me CVS, J, or Slime, Abyss, or whatecer. I'm TME and some kinda nonhuman (trans) man, Chinese/White and use he/him, they/them, xe/xem, and whatever other pronouns (minus she/her). I'm also aro/ace

I'm regularly dealing with Mental Health Issues, primarily severe depression mixed with Grief. I'm also just kind of a cunt. This all means I am very Negative as a person.

Proshippers/anti antis, AO3 supporters, transandrophobia truthers, zionists etc. Given the chance I would kill us both.

Not as strong but I'll probably block you if you're a bi/mspec lesbian (and similar label) supporter, "toothpaste" (green+blue) gay flag user, or pro-endogenic systems. Just block me or whatever we shouldn't interact

Also no minors thanks. No hard feelings.

Also- for the love of God Do Not Interact or Follow if you are an ED focused blog. I'm not gonna make any judgements but that topic is just one that is BAD for my mental health.

If you follow me I may look thru ur blog. If I dont vibe I'll probably hard block this isn't super serious the block button is just so fun to press.

I try to tag common triggers as either #(trigger) TW / #(trigger) / #(trigger) ment. The TW form is most common. If I'm unsure it will be tagged "#ask to tag" BUT even if it's not tagged that I'm fine with tagging whatever. I do have a pretty bad memory so if you need a more obscure trigger to always be tagged that probably won't work :^(

Sometimes I talk about personal issues with mental health. I try to tag these but it's not super consistent. Big things are anger issues/compulsive skin picking/Severe Depression.

Transandrophobia isn't real but I'm also the world's biggest transandrophobe. It's a hard job but someone's gotta do it.

Final notes: let me know if I RB from someone fucked up (and if possible please give me a link to the post cause memory issues + tumblr search being Bad is a horrid combo). If I say something fucked up PLEASE specify what it was don't make me assume. I try to write image descriptions for most of the images I post in alt text but they might be bad. I will often say violent or very angry shit bc I have Issues so if that's a problem. Yeah. I'm an artist and art makes me so mad I wish I was dead. Also I'm not into Cookie Run any more I just like Leek Cookie.

#Hi thanks. This post. #Fun little note: I also use E/Im/Is pronouns (Same as he/him without the H). Ok thank you. #WHY IS THIS STUPID POST SO LONG #Oh before I forget: don't call me the q slur/the q slur is a slur/it's not a good umbrella term is everyone says ''trans and q****'' #insteas of just q**** bc that should b redundant. #Anyway here's this fucking thing. Maybe I'll clean it up some day

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hey thank you for explaining some of the terminology history! i made that post when i was in a big flurry of frustration and only cited that one source, i didnt know about the word headmate's definitive origin. i think i saw that info at one point, so i personally dont use it. its true a lot of the history and terminology is messy, and im not necessarily against everyone who uses the term endogenic, but im highly critical of people without trauma who claim to be systems. there have just been (1)

a lot of bad experiences for both my system and the entire traumagenic community involving people who use the terms endogenic, tulpa, etc. if you have done legitimate and extensive research and questioning, and are really experiencing something that either appears to be/is plurality without trauma, then your experience is valid as long as youre being sensible, informed, and honest with yourself. the science/belief line is blurry, and the facts are limited right now, but we have to respect (2)

whats been proven and/or studied so far. that’s not to say there isn’t change in the future, but as of now multiplicity is strongly in the realm of psychiatry rather than spirituality, since its a proven disorder that impacts life for the system, often distressingly. anyways, thank you for your replies and have a good day (3)            

mm, thank you for being receptive!  (cf this post, for those reading along)

i think the same is honestly true in reverse – my non-traumagenic friends, and the endogenic and quoigenic community at large, have had a lot of bad experiences with traumagenic systems.  (mainly, a lot of “you’re appropriating an illness, you aren’t really multiple people, you’re wrong about your experience and are being hurtful no matter how you talk about it, get away from us, oh you made a space well here we are to say how dare you exist” and, yes, “well a few of you might have thought it through, there’s probably some good ones, but as a blanket rule this very idea is damaging.”)

i really… am of the opinion that the line of “legitimate, extensive research and really experiencing and informed” is a bar that moves, and is impossible to prove to anyone’s satisfaction unless they decide you’re “reasonable” – and then becomes a, “look at this model minority person and how much they agree with me, you should be more like them.”  i think self-diagnosis (and this is often… self-non-diagnosis) gatekeeping always does this.

as for proven/studied so far, there’s incentive to not study non-traumagenic multiplicity because, yes, people already looking for an excuse to disbelieve traumagenic/all multiplicity will jump on it and try to discredit DID as fake/misunderstood, and to further defund research.  but that’s… not the fault of non-traumagenic systems.

but also - definitions of “proven,” right (is anything in science definitively proven? models get taken back and changed drastically all the time, and often on political bases).

and the whole - impacts life, often distressingly - yeah!  distress is a required criteria for pretty much all mental disorders, certainly for DID/OSDD!  and these non-traumagenic systems are basically saying - this doesn’t cause me distress, not inherently the way the DSM means, maybe as a side effect of people’s reactions to me as unreal.  i think it makes a lot of sense that the whole life-impact-thing isn’t always disordered distressed.

furthermore, most of the endogenic/quoigenic systems i talk to are… psychiatry-/psychology- or “what the fuck, this is just Happening i guess”-based, not spiritual?  i think spirituality is an easy target of supposedly romanticizing something, and easy to broaden to paint everyone.  but many, many of these folks are just saying, “so we have multiple people in one body” - and using the word “system” for that because, yeah, it’s not Confirmed Scientific Linguistic Historically DID-Only

mm. i think any argument based on “i have bad experiences with this group of people” is very much vulnerable to - like how people form opinions of kin on tumblr.  the Visible Element, the Active ones who cross boundaries.  and then a whole experience-based identity becomes associated with a behavior as if they were one and the same.  i think it’s very important to learn to keep those things separate - which doesn’t mean not addressing behaviors!  but it means not assuming them before they happen, and it means investigating identity groups with an open mind.  especially when it comes to arguments over who’s allowed to use what words.

this is, long, but.  i hope this makes sense?

#asks #endogenic #quoigenic #syscourse #is i suppose the term #multiplicity