#i am really tired and slowly descending into madness which means i rant about shit like this

[w0lf-is-in-your-basement]

If I know enough about everything I won't fear anything

#knowledge isn't just power. it's power over fear and the unknown. #if i eradicate the unknown i can't fear it #or at least bring the unknown down to a manageable level #who cares if i don't know what i ate for breakfast 20 days ago? that unknown is nothing to fear. #but death? that is an unknown to fear. #and i cant make myself hide behind religion #unless i believe the stories i make so much that they consume my thoughts #sometimes its easier just to paint over the unknown with my own colors and hide it from my sight #but that isnt a long-term solution. no. pretending i know the unknown doesnt make it known. it just makes another possibility. #but if i know all the possibilities #then i can be prepared for whatever the unknown turns out to be #and then i will have a solid plan #even if that plan is to simply accept what could be as it happens #that's still a better plan than just wandering through life right next to the answers but too scared to look them in the face #i am really tired and slowly descending into madness which means i rant about shit like this #i don't need to know everything. i just need to know ENOUGH. #but what draws the line between enough and too much? #will i ever obtain the arbitrary amount of knowledge i think is enough or will i forever search for knowledge that cannot exist? #i don't know. #but i can find out. #knowing enough will take a while #maybe i don't need to know everything. i just need to be aware of all the possibilities and use that to determine what's most likely. #idk. i need sleep. #if anyone besides me happens to read this- you also need sleep go to bed