#i cant overdose on my antidepressants but I don’t want to do anything without a professional advising me to

[pixies--dust]

Need to do schoolwork but i have been attacked by the mental illness creature

#like hey depression… real nice of you to show up and get in the way of things that I seriously need to do #i only kind of want to cry #got the classic ‘empty hole in your chest’ feeling #a shower could maybe help me but last time I took a shower while feeling depressed I had to fight myself to keep my razor where it sits #idk why it’s so difficult again #maybe it’s because I’m not seeing my friends that much? #but I can’t fix that cause we’re all in uni and stuff #i feel like I’m suffering in silence even though I know I don’t have to #it’s just… embarrassing to admit I’m struggling again #i wonder if it’s my birth control but I also don’t want to not take it cause my periods are so much better #maybe I need a higher med dose #but I’m a little afraid to try that out for myself #i cant overdose on my antidepressants but I don’t want to do anything without a professional advising me to #i wish i could just have a little breather #like a week where nothing new is assigned and I can just work without feeling stressed #i just want to curl up in bed while the world disappears around me #my rambling #vent