#i don't deserve to feel like this periods shouldn't debilitate you this much etc etc...

[sherlock-is-ace]

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#woke up today with a looming sense of dread #i'm sitting here with tears rolling down my face because of minor inconvenients #i have no energy and find no joy in anything... #wouldn't you guess i'm due my period any time now... #every month i'm more convinced i have pmdd... and every month i'm full to the brim with anxiety and depression... #this is SO FUCKING FUN! #also yeah yeah i need to go to a doctor i need to speak to someone about this and i need to get medicated #i don't deserve to feel like this periods shouldn't debilitate you this much etc etc... #i don't think there's a human professional in this country that believes pmdd is a thing enough to medicate me #i know for a fact that my mother (a person i live with and in some way still holds power over me whether on purpose or by my own issues) #doesn't believe is a thing because she's the kind of person who says depressed people just need to ''choose happiness'' so... #not exactly a possibility now #not to mention i FUCKED UP the only regular client i had and now i won't be earning enough money to waste on doctor appointments #just to have some old male doctor tall me my ''womanly problems aren't bad enough'' so... yeah not doing that #ANYWAYS i don't see hope in the world today this will pass in a few weeks and everything will be fine #why don't i go watch good omens and maybe i'll calm down am i right? #lol #angel talks #personal