#i feel weird abt my own nudity cause the thought of being sexualized creeps me out

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weird random 4am thoughts abt human bodies

sometimes i do wish i wasnt ace literally just bc im so fascinated by human bodies but i never get the chance to see any but my own!! like, ive been learning abt how hypermobile i am over the past few years, and i feel like i wouldve figured it out way earlier if id had other ppl to compare myself to. even just like, natural body variations are so cool to me. scars and birthmarks and wrinkles and stretchmarks and rolls and body hair and just! everything!

i wish nudity/the human body wasnt such a taboo in north american culture. ive even been tempted to watch porn literally just so i can see what other ppls bodies look like 😭😭😭 i do think thats why im so interested in watching medical/anatomy videos like the institute of human anatomy tho, and why ive considered going into the mortuary/funeral industry. i just think bodies are neat!

#this has been an original post #personal spewage #sucks that the only times ppl tend to get up close and personal w other ppls bodies are during sex or death #kinda weird when you think abt it #i feel weird abt my own nudity cause the thought of being sexualized creeps me out #but thats only bc nudity itself is so heavily sexualized #dumb :/ #anyway this post brought to you by me lying in bed wondering how ppl without hypermobile shoulders sleep on their side lol #like where does your shoulder go? is it just. digging into the mattress? #also whenever i see ppl lying on their side their “upper” shoulder is always like. pointing straight up #like. in the same position it would be in if they were standing #i always assumed thats bc ppl were Acting/knew their were being photographed or recorded #but now im wondering. is that just how ppls shoulders sit when they lie down? #do they not collapse inwards towards your chest? #wild #anyway #gonna continue trying to fall asleep