#i fucking hate my job so goddamn motherfucking much and 70% of it is customers and 25% is asshole coworkers

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1-154. you wont

bitch

bet i will

1: Full name

lashy. das all you get

2: Age

19

3: 3 Fears

stairs, glass breaking, not being able to get ahold of someone

4: 3 things I love

my ocs uwu, my friends, my fucking tablet goddamn

5: 4 turns on

not comfy sharing on tumblr

6: 4 turns off

ill say ill come back to this one then leave this in the post

7: My best friend

rn i would say it’s probably blitztrolls

8: Sexual orientation

pan uwu

9: My best first date

ahh.... i havent had an in person first date still ;u;

10: How tall am I

5′5″

11: What do I miss

not being stressed eue;;;

12: What time were I born

¯\_(ツ)_/¯

13: Favourite color

pale blu

14: Do I have a crush

ye u//w//u

15: Favourite quote

you know these things are asked and my mind goes blank

16: Favourite place

the woods just after it’s rained

17: Favourite food

im a basic bitch and just gonna say mac n cheese

18: Do I use sarcasm

no absolutely not. nope.

19: What am I listening to right now

ambles playlist- it’s on ocean eyes by billie elish rn

20: First thing I notice in new person

prooooobably like. their face? typing style if it’s online

21: Shoe size

uhhhhhh i think like a womens 10?

22: Eye color

blue/green

23: Hair color

dark brown

24: Favourite style of clothing

loose and baggy because if i cant be comfortable what’s the point

25: Ever done a prank call?

HELL YEAH

27: Meaning behind my URL

lashyd was one of my first fantrolls and i liked the way it sounded

28: Favourite movie

mmmmm either labyrinth, princess mononoke or annihilation

29: Favourite song

no clue my friend im bad at picking

30: Favourite band

same as above sweats

31: How I feel right now

excited but tired

32: Someone I love

passivetrolls u//w//u/

33: My current relationship status

in a relationship!

34: My relationship with my parents

love my dad, kinda dislike my mom

35: Favourite holiday

christ mass

36: Tattoos and piercing i have

none, im so scared of needles ;u;

37: Tattoos and piercing i want

mmmmmaybe something stupid and simple on like my ankle?? i dunno what tho sweats

38: The reason I joined Tumblr

another fandom and i got bored with homeschooling lmao

39: Do I and my last ex hate each other?

i dislike them but they have tried to contact me a few times before i blocked them

40: Do I ever get “good morning” or “good night ” texts?

not usually

41: Have I ever kissed the last person you texted?

i dont text so ill go w discord and no i have not the last person i messaged was you shenk gdi

42: When did I last hold hands?

the 2nd ;u;

43: How long does it take me to get ready in the morning?

7ish minutes

44: Have You shaved your legs in the past three days?

hellllllllllll no

45: Where am I right now?

room

46: If I were drunk & can’t stand, who’s taking care of me?

prooooobably my bf or my dad. hate alcohol tho

47: Do I like my music loud or at a reasonable level?

loud but only w speakers

48: Do I live with my Mom and Dad?

only da

49: Am I excited for anything?

absolutely motherfucker im making new friends left and right

50: Do I have someone of the opposite sex I can tell everything to?

i got two uwu

51: How often do I wear a fake smile?

:))))))) irl most of the time tbh

52: When was the last time I hugged someone?

last night

53: What if the last person I kissed was kissing someone else right in front of me?

i would probably cry ugnfldkjfgslfdjg the last person i kissed was my bf wheezes

54: Is there anyone I trust even though I should not?

i mean probably.

55: What is something I disliked about today?

ehhhh nothing bad has really happened today

56: If I could meet anyone on this earth, who would it be?

probably my friend from serbia uwu

57: What do I think about most?

ocs probably sweats

58: What’s my strangest talent?

burping on command? i dunno

59: Do I have any strange phobias?

glass shattering ouo;;;

60: Do I prefer to be behind the camera or in front of it?

beh ind

61: What was the last lie I told?

calling myself a basic bitch lmao

62: Do I perfer talking on the phone or video chatting online?

phone probably? video calls make me nervous

63: Do I believe in ghosts? How about aliens?

hell yeah to both

64: Do I believe in magic?

hell yeah i yell tossing salt on all my rocks

65: Do I believe in luck?

yeee

66: What’s the weather like right now?

uhhh clear i think

67: What was the last book I’ve read?

Shibuya Goldfish

68: Do I like the smell of gasoline?

nop

69: Do I have any nicknames?

lash, lashy, gremlin and then stupid relationship nicknames gldsfgjfgs

70: What was the worst injury I’ve ever had?

prooobably almost falling down some stairs at a con and chipping my shin and probably partly pulling my shoulder out of the socket

71: Do I spend money or save it?

i try to save but end up spending it ouo;;;;

72: Can I touch my nose with a tounge?

nearly

73: Is there anything pink in 10 feets from me?

there are some half customized MH dolls so i guess yeah

74: Favourite animal?

cat uwu

75: What was I doing last night at 12 AM?

drawing ambles trollcall pick

76: What do I think is Satan’s last name is?

satan stan obviously

77: What’s a song that always makes me happy when I hear it?

Here - Ancient Magus' Bride OP

78: How can you win my heart?

art of my ocs ngl

79: What would I want to be written on my tombstone?

fuck if i knew

80: What is my favorite word?

probably fuck if you would ask my phone lmao

81: My top 5 blogs on tumblr

passivetrollsblitztrollstavvys-trollsfilibusterfrogwe-are-the-legion

82: If the whole world were listening to me right now, what would I say?

hey fuckers lets rumble

83: Do I have any relatives in jail?

not that i know of

84: I accidentally eat some radioactive vegetables. They were good, and what’s even cooler is that they endow me with the super-power of my choice! What is that power?

teleportation ngl

85: What would be a question I’d be afraid to tell the truth on?

probably 87

86: What is my current desktop picture?

87: Had sex?

sweats how about we move on

88: Bought condoms?

ye

89: Gotten pregnant?

hell no

90: Failed a class?

i think yeah

91: Kissed a boy?

yeeeeeeee

92: Kissed a girl?

nop

93: Have I ever kissed somebody in the rain?

does it count if we were indoors

94: Had job?

not yet wheezes

95: Left the house without my wallet?

ye

96: Bullied someone on the internet?

i dont think so i mgiht have when i was younger

97: Had sex in public?

n o

98: Played on a sports team?

ye!

99: Smoked weed?

ye.

100: Did drugs?

only weedles

101: Smoked cigarettes?

nop

102: Drank alcohol?

yes and i hated it

103: Am I a vegetarian/vegan?

nop

104: Been overweight?

ye

105: Been underweight?

nop

106: Been to a wedding?

nop

107: Been on the computer for 5 hours straight?

 every day p much

108: Watched TV for 5 hours straight?

nop

109: Been outside my home country?

ye!

110: Gotten my heart broken?

;;;; yeah

111: Been to a professional sports game?

ye

112: Broken a bone?

possibly?

113: Cut myself?

if this is on accident then ya

114: Been to prom?

prom is a waste of time ngl just go to arbys

115: Been in airplane?

yeye

116: Fly by helicopter?

n o

117: What concerts have I been to?

blueman group and the 4th of july ones that play around here

118: Had a crush on someone of the same sex?

yeeee

119: Learned another language?

bits and pieces

120: Wore make up?

yeah

121: Lost my virginity before I was 18?

nop

122: Had oral sex?

lets just skip the sex questions

123: Dyed my hair?

yeee

124: Voted in a presidential election?

ee

125: Rode in an ambulance?

nop

126: Had a surgery?

nop

127: Met someone famous?

yeye

128: Stalked someone on a social network?

god no

129: Peed outside?

this question is weird

130: Been fishing?

hell the fuck yeah

131: Helped with charity?

prrrrobaby?

132: Been rejected by a crush?

yeah ;u;

133: Broken a mirror?

i dont think so

134: What do I want for birthday?

money

135: How many kids do I want and what will be their names?

NO

136: Was I named after anyone?

i was named after two people uwu

137: Do I like my handwriting?

i can barely read it lmao i hate it

138: What was my favourite toy as a child?

my stuffed tigger uwu

139: Favourite Tv Show?

fuck i dunno probably cyberchase or fetch i dont watch tv anymore lmao

140: Where do I want to live when older?

somewhere quiet but convenient

141: Play any musical instrument?

flute and violin

142: One of my scars, how did I get it?

i have a scar on my knuckle from making garlic bread ;u; wasnt even good

143: Favourite pizza toping?

banana peppers

144: Am I afraid of the dark?

nah

145: Am I afraid of heights?

mmmm at times

146: Have I ever got caught sneaking out or doing anything bad?

yeah >w>;;;

147: Have I ever tried my hardest and then gotten disappointed in the end?

all the mc fuckin time

148: What I’m really bad at

telling people when im not up for something

149: What my greatest achievments are

being alive you fuckers cant beat me i won over hundreds of other fuckers and im here

150: The meanest thing somebody has ever said to me

Lets Not, Kids

151: What I’d do if I won in a lottery

buy so much cosplay shit and helping friends get what they need

152: What do I like about myself

im getting better uwu

153: My closest Tumblr friend

passivetrolls or blitztrolls wheezes

154: Something I fantasize about

being able to help my friends out of the places they are right now QuQ

155: Any question you’d like?

more questions for amble and my other girls!

#mun chitters #you thought i wouldnt do it did ya fucker #shenktrolls #ask

[applecherry108]

i’ve been horrifically suicidal for so long now and i finally had my psych appointment but my psych just gave me The Look and spent most of yesterday crying in her office unable to communicate bc i’ve been Numb and disassociating but my point is, no i haven’t made all the fucking calls she wanted me to (it’s fucking bullshit that i have to wrangle my own therapist wtf) bUT i am on day 2 of calling out from work and i actually have tomorrow off and HOO BOY four days in a row of no Retail Hell? i am feeling fucking better already.

“what would you tell your friend to do in this situation?”

“bitch how many times do i have to tell you that my best options for Getting Better are either to flat out get a different job or get some kind of supplementary income but u ain’t supporting my interest in disability so you’re the one causing an impasse stop pinning this on me damn”

tfw ur psychiatrist nurse practitioner just wants to give you Pity Looks and scold you for being honest about not making calls (”you have to put effort in here” “bitch have u not been listening? putting in effort i don’t have is what got me here why do u think i have spoons left?”) and keeps suggesting bullshit plans. “hang out with friends” don’t got anything asshole. “exercise outside of being on your feet for 5 hours a day!” no. since calling out of work i am giving myself multiple days to not only rest my feet and rest my shoulder by not wearing my bra. i got a dislocated collar bone and giant tiddies what part of my existence ISN’T pain? she keeps pushing a drastic med increase too but like my stomach has been jacked for days and honestly? flat out not going to work is doing more good for me than any* (*increase lmao i need my meds) amount of medication. and my roommatee when i said i was probably going to call out yesterday (which i did) said i should go in if i’m depressed bc “at least you’re not just sitting at home”

oh. my. GOD. i fucking love??? sitting at home??? doing NOTHING?? hanging out with my cats watching some movies finally getting around to doing the dishes, doing some dumb crafts?? replanting that onion i accidentally forgot about until it started sprouting???? and most importantly not being on my feet. not dealing with asshole customers and asshole management or Middle School Mean Girl coworkers. how do these people not get that i love having time to myself to just do Nothing bc it’s goddamn relaxing?? i can’t remember the last time i even had TWO consecutive days off!! let alone FOUR!!!! four that i didn’t have to spend 18 hours on planes to get to and from ohio bc let’s be real the only time i ever take ANY time off i have to fucking go visit my family. i am so!!! exhausted!!!! CONSTANTLY!!!!!! just being able to chill is a GODSEND. i actually feel recharged enough to job hunt!! or not be suicidal!! to not really want therapy anymore because god DAMN!!!! “what are 3 things you’re feeling? “.............does numb count?” “sure” “okay so numb, uhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh angry? and uhhh///////////................ does anxiety count as a feeling/’ what’s the point in therapy if i’ve been totally divorced from all feelings emotions or everything really??? “why” “my job.” boom. done. problem goddamn fucking solved. “what stressors--” “my job.” “situations--” “my. job.” “if you could change one thing--” “MY FUCKING JOB HOLY HELL”

like oh sure i still have major anxiety and depression on a normal day but my meds manage that extremely well. what drives me to full fledged suicidal ideation is my. god. damn. job. “the bar for disability is very high--” “how much higher do i have to get than ‘i need income so i won’t be homeless but literally my job makes me want to kill myself. ‘are u nonfunctioning?’ only when i have to be at this shithole retail job!!!!!!!’“ like i looked it up. i meet every single requirement for depression disability ESPECIALLY when i’m at work. i just. need SOMETHING to pay the rent while i actually get a less stressful job that is, prefereably, not going to the job that makes me want to kill myself every single day.

i am looking. i’ve been applying. but lord almighty this job market sucks and i am a tall unattractive female who doesn’t wear make up so surprise surprise! guess who keeps getting shafted in interviews for bullshit reasons.

u know, if i had gone to work today i’d be balling my eyes out while typing this but guess what!! i’m  not!! i am 100% fine right now!! WOW!!! the miracles of NOT being in a stressful degrading environment!!!!

#i fucking hate my job so goddamn motherfucking much and 70% of it is customers and 25% is asshole coworkers #so if i can harass my manager into making me a support specialist i can eliminate those two factors and just deal with my crap managers #sitting in a room by myself totally unmanaged getting work done? sign me the fuck up! i don't 100% hate this job but GOD #and entire turn over in management AND coworkers on top of the already garbage customers?? nope. #Apple talks #to the tune of spam #tw suicide mention