#i hope my meds kick in so i dont do anything regretful. wellactually kinda dont hope but whatever

[zarovich]

the crushing loneliness of life has me losing my mind

#personal #crying sohard my shirt is completely soaked att this point lol #its whatever. im alone and it sucks so bad but its better this way. i know it #i cant get hurt by others if i isolate for the rest of my life. and i cant hurt others if i dont interect with them #but it hurts so bad. i wish friends were real i wish they were real so bad that my heart feels like its being ripped out my chest #idk. i feel so sick. i dont wanna wake up tomorrow but j dont really have a choice do i #im trapped. like im never gona be free or safe or happy. im gonna be trapped in this fucking body and place for ever #i hope my meds kick in so i dont do anything regretful. wellactually kinda dont hope but whatever #might delete this later. if i even remember. ill probablt forgot i post this in like 10 mins since i usually do #itll be a memorial for my dumb ass breakdown if i forgot to delete or too lazy to delete 🤪 #im gonna distract myself and stare at the ceiling or something. maybe eat some more lava cakes idk