#i just realised my shirt shows my collerbones and it looks feminine and you can see where the shirt is stretched cos of my chest and

[wings-of-angels]

Oh no big mistake to have looked at my reflection in the glass door in the kitchen </3 my gender dysphoria just skyrocketted :(

#normally i have very little dysphoria. like some mild discomfort and feeling of strangeness at having a chest and not looking like a boy #but OH MY GOD this is horrible #i just realised my shirt shows my collerbones and it looks feminine and you can see where the shirt is stretched cos of my chest and #HHHHHFHFHHJFHJJJ #i want to look like a boy :( why arent i a boy #like ik im a boy (gender neutral) #but :(( #i need to go on testosterone and get top surgery #only another 2 months and then i can start the process of testosterone #but just #i hate this i hate the feeling of wrongness i hate how i can feel my shirt against my chest and ik its there #i havent had this bad dysphoria in like a year #i just :(( #vent tw #vent #and my binders too small and my chest hurts after wearing it so i cant wear that