#i know its partly genetics because my mom has similar problems but god

[beehop]

i dislike the dentist for so many reasons but what is it about them that can just make you feel like a berated small child who has done something wrong but doesn't quite understand why they are getting scolded

#like ok yes i understand as an adult why i am getting scolded #but also it makes me feel so small and stupid #i brush twice a day i don't know why my teeth are like this i do my best and my best doesn't include flossing every day #like i don't know what to say #i know its partly genetics because my mom has similar problems but god #no other part of your body demands this much maintenance #what the fuck is it about teeth #anyway now i have to go back TWICE because the hygienist was basically so displeased with my teeth that she wants to do a deep cleaning #something i had no idea existed but takes TWO sessions and numbing #also i have a cavity but that's like lol whatever at this point #and some of this i have to pay for out of pocket but it seems like insurance covers a good portion #bc i asked how much it was and it wasn't awful #but GOD i hate it #i hate it so bad #like i legit almost cried and now i have a headache from it and it makes me feel pathetic like i'm nearing 30 this is so fucking stupid #i can deal with the discomfort from the cleaning itself its all the emotional shit that they seem to lay on you that just...ugh