#i listen to ffxiv music n 🫶🏼

[noxtivagus]

FFXIV AND HOPE

#🌙.rambles #[ ffxiv. ] #i listen to ffxiv music n 🫶🏼 #yk thinking abt drk #it rlly yk w the wol n accepting both sides #i particularly love shb for that theme as well with light/dark #the storytelling is just so poetic #drk with self-love and forgiveness #in the end it's all we can do to just love and forgive ourselves #my creativity lets all hell loose with ffxiv #the writing oh god n the images it creates in my head and the emotions and feelings and thoughts it invokes in me #it's so passionate and strong. it gives me life #i wish to be better at writing so that #i can better and more beautifully articulate these feelings into words i can read again #i really miss writing #aaaa it's so hard to fully convey all that i want to say >.> #but i'll always try my best. i'll always be proud of all i've achieved #and i'll keep on forging onwards unto tomorrow

[noxtivagus]

i love the architects sm. their music is so good

#🌙.rambles #ty ffxiv for introducing me to them #I LOVE SAM CARTER'S VOICE SM ILL CRY #from the screams n oh my god he sings metal rlly well #but then h. his voice is like. an angel too #like. particularly rn one song in my head w that soft voice i love so much is #'death is absolutely safe' #listening to 'death is not defeat' for the first time rn. oh my god. his voice #THE LYRICS R SO GOOD I'LL CRY HAHA #n the msuic too. the isntruments the strings there n the metal.. eprfection #peffection #PERFECTION 🥹🫶🏼 #raghh i love the architects sm #from memento mori n learn to live. n like. dead butterflies / animals / black lungs / meteor #flight without feathers / death is absolutely safe / doomsday / a match made in heaven / the distant blue #mortality.. is probably smth i think abt on a daily basis #like even when i was younger. idk maybe it's bcs of the stories i read #gosh one of my fav books ever is still the giver. that influenced me so much #i love music sm #existence / heaven help us specifically have smth w rhe composition that melts me heart sm #hfkshfksjfs music.. these songs r so good i love them so very much #OH YEAH THE ARCHITECTS BTW THEY THEY ADVOCATE FOR STUFF TOO. I LOVE THEM SO VERY MUCH #i'm very passionate abt climate change n yk sam carter the frontman n singer of the architects #dogs !!!! animals !!!!! c: #the rest of the members like. ah.. yeah the twins. sorry wait i'll get emotional if i think of them but #their lyrics rlly r so meaningful. n i love the mixture of compassion n viscousness they have in a way #it's just. heavy. whether it's about mortality of people or of the earth. n sam's voice delivers it so well. n the band's jsut rlly so good #n the.. twins.. w the lyrics? iirc sob n then just. thre rest of the band. music's so good. n then. sam speaks out on stuff too iirc #I JUST. REALLY APPRECIATE THEM SO MUCH. ONE OF MY FAV BANDS FR. #random thought i will read more edgar allan poe. i always rmb that wnvr i listen to animals bcs dream within a dream 🥹🫶🏼

[noxtivagus]

yoko shimomura i love her style so much

#🌙.rambles #shimomura w ffxv & kh is just. oh my god that #no wait this is so funny to me bcs i really just Cried for a bit n now i'm listening to music while eating a lot of chocolate 😭 #random but brookside has always been my fav chocolate ever since i first ate it like years ago n no other chocolate compares to it for me #wait shimomura w the alchemist code! for whom the alchemist exists 🥺 #goddamn i grew up playing a ton of gacha. like gacha strategy games n gacha uh.. otome.. 💀 #oh man i love shimomura's compositions so much #apocalypsis noctis & forza finale & noctis & nachtflugel & melancholia & dearly beloved & apocalypsis magnatus & vector to the heavens #& moonlit melodies n. oh my god there's rlly so much !!!! #i'd say like.. i don't know how to describe it well right now but it's rather elegant in a way? #is it very obvious i really like orchestra #as much as i love piano uh. violin is tied w it as my fav instrument bcs it just sounds so elegant i love it so much #random i'm really just talking abt osts in general but gbf 'illuminated world' & ffxiv 'insanity' pls i love them so much #going off-topic from shimomura but yasunori nishiki w octopath n granblue n. 🥹🫶🏼 #some of my favs r cyrus the scholar &. hdflajsdfj yk the break ver. of octopath songs!!!! #n then gbf.. the path of duty & weisser drache & #yk when i first listened to the path of duty it immediately reminded me of octopath's ost 😭 #peacemaker's wings it immediately reminded me of uematsu n look he did contribute to it #I THINK AT LEAST.. I'M BASING ALL THESE OFF SPOTIFY I'M SO SORRY IF I'M WRONG #tsutomu narita ilyvm for gbf's ost!!!! n. oh nah if i talk abt soken i won't stop n uematsu too oh my god #keiichi okabe too ily. n the other nier composers i think i'm sorry i don't remember their names as well >< #i have no idea how all these ppl r all irl but i love all their music so much #listening to all these osts just make me so happy they comfort me sm fr i love video games so much :<< #nier automata my fav osts r voice of no return & grandma (destruction) & a beautiful song & emil (despair) & fortress of lies & #weight of the world ofc. n then gestalt/replicant there's uh grandma & song of the ancients / devola & dispossession & yonah & kaine #& emil & his/this dream & the dark colossus destroys all & shadowlord & ashes of dreams ofc!!!! #oh man i love music boxes sm. #THERE'S SM SONG I DIDN'T LIST BUT THERE'S SO MUCH 😭😭 #other games n series like chrono & zelda & fe & soulsborne & persona & the witcher &. IM FORGETTING SO MUCH BUT <33 #WAIT I FORGOT I CHANGED FROM BEING INVISIBLE IN DISCORD;;;;;

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i love love ffxiv sm fr (to the edge)

#I ACCIDENTALLY FELL ASLEEP LAST NIGHT 😭 my alarm didn't wake me up sob. gna do a lot today but rn i just. #wna listen to music n think to myself n write for a bit. hdfkalsjdf oh my god the effect to the edge has on me. #it's. genuinely probably. if i had to pick one song. wld be to the edge. hard choice but nothing else would be right. #n well. the fight's more for hmm i guess elidibus fans? apollo likes him more than me bcs i'm uhhhh an unfortunate emet-selch liker #but. that wave. THAT WAVE 🥹 such a simple movement but one that just. revealed the identity of that. yk shade that arrived #the bittersweetness in the whole exchange. n it hurts so much when you think of how. how they all used to be so happy #but now everything they've known is torn apart. for thousands of years.. that loneliness must've broken emet fr #the burden of all those lives lost. being able to see n feel them w his affinity w aether n the underworld #n then. elidibus forgot. n lahabrea's.. twisted beyond himself. tragic isn't it? n emet-selch's the only one that remembers #cries. but w endwalker what they did. i rmb crying so much throughout all that. gave me some closure fr 😭😭 #n then when it comes to the musical comp too yk the. oh my god w neath dark waters yk the theme of amaurot n #the ticking.. time. n then the lyrics. i'm. technically catholic christian sob but i'm not religious n i'd consider myself agnostic. #but yk the references w the bible or christian mythology. n then the lyrics in general. 'we only fly when falling far from grace' 🥹🫶🏼 #i love all the expacs in ffxiv sm i just have these phases where i'm all over each of them n rn it's shb #all the. expacs r like. arr was the start yk n i went through most of it w school n. it was comfort. esp bcs smth painful irl happened #around then. heavensward was. my fav expac at that time yk? for so many reasons.. alphi aymeric haurchefant n the story n drk n #end of the free trial. stormblood was the start of when we subbed. i cld finally play tgther w apollo. our freedom too in our own way #n then it was such a real story n touched on pain n. yk. rlly was a very compassionate story n i enjoyed thoroughly w my empathetic heart #shb was. my endgame for a while. i mean. we started out 5.3 but was still in the free trial n finally got the game 5.5 #we started raiding n that's where most of our growth to who we are now happened. n the story is.. it's so. perfect. #i have a lot of memories in endwalker too but shb as an expansion was where most of my memories w other players n all happened #n. i'll ramble too much oh no but endwalker was. the first i experienced from the start. n the story is so.. oh my god #i have. the highest praise for ffxiv's story. obvs still has some of its faults here n there but the highs are worth indescribably much. #n i really mean each of those words. oh my god ffxiv rlly saved me. but i'll. also ramble more if i entertain that thought n write rn so #yk these. stories n songs n just wtvr. just has sm themes that. oh fuck it idk how to put it into words bcs it just all resonates w me sm #like. to the edge it has such a lovely composition n i love listening to every single part of it. n then the lyrics r so well-made. yk? #n then the story behind it too is.. they just put so much thought into it n w so much love n it's just so meaningful. it means so much to m #it just has. so much. n i find so much comfort in it. hdlkafjsd n then themes.. yk w amaurot for example n to the edge #underwater. angels. wings. remember. time. tomorrow. n then the stuff w morality n. just. sm of that has resonated a lot w me #ever since i was young so yk in finding ffxiv it was like i found smth that finally. finally matched w me n smth that'll continue for long