#i really thought she was comjng arounf to the idea of me being queer and i was so happy

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#i dknt have anywhere else to vent so like. um. #i was gonna come out to my mom today #and as i started the conversation that i hoped would lead to that we started talking about lgbt rights and youth #i said some stuff about depression and suicide rates in trans kids #and practically as i was opening my mouth to tell her im trans #she starts talking abkuf how she wishes there was more research #not to help gay and trans people but like. to get rid of them. #im sorry for any typos im like. sobbing as i type lol #but yeah. #i really thought she was comjng arounf to the idea of me being queer and i was so happy #but i guess none of it was real. #i just dkmt even know what to do im iterally so fucking depressed lately and i lost my best friend and now this???? #like. damn. #its literally midnight too. i have to get up early tomorrow for classes and yet here i am fucking sobbjng #she even said that she hopes im not depressed any more. like. #holy hell mom. YOURE the one causing it!!!! #idk. i dont knlw what to do. i feel like im getting closer to the edge every day and this just shoved me forward #god i need to stop crying my head hurts #anyway. #yeah #vent