#i talked a lot and overshared 😐😭

[sillybillygirlinher20s]

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#went on date today omg #it was fun ig but also idk #i talked a lot and overshared 😐😭 #i feel like w guys i get put into a cute box #i am shy when i first meet ppl #but also idk i dont feel like physical attraction to ppl #like genuinely only getting physically attracted to women irl #sigh😕 #he seems sweet but also a bit forward #saw a kid and he asked me if i ever want to have kids #which im like NO. lmao #and he was like you dont wanna get married and have kids?? #like no. #i said i cant imagine myself getting married #😭😭😭😭 #i said sm things that are not normal #crying #i wish i was normal genuinely #like sm things i try to do it just seems like im so abnormal #coming back he also mentioned like meeting my mom?? #like he was like oh your mom probably wouldn't like me #and got kinda taken aback when i mentioned that i was talking to other ppl #shawty im not looking to settle down rn #i have a headache too so stressful #a girl shouldnt have such worries

[fruitmagazine]

ok oversharing story under this because i need to let out this and i have no one to told about and this is my diary😋

ok so the other day i had a "fight" with my mom and i mean it wasnt even a fight but all started because she was LIKE ALWAYS telling me story and with her narrative has to use to most hurtful adjectives against EVERYONE and at one point she was telling me how she stopped being someone's friend because they had an abortion and she told be how against she was about abortion and whatever she has made it so clear in the past so i didnt care much but then she started to talk about her OWN sister using again the most horrible adjectives against her and calling her a slut ans so and i was like 🤨🤨 but then out of nowhere she started to compare MY SISTER (HER OWN DAUGHTER) to my aunt and saying how she isnt her life right and god forbids one day she gets pregnant because it's obvious she is gonna abort and this is when i got MAD FOR REAL and i told her really careful because i know her and i know you can't really dialogue with her that all the things she was saying were not nice and i even told her that i KNEW she wasnt trying to be mean on purpose but she needed to stop saying things like that about my sister because she has hurt her before and even if she wanted to have sex with everyone it was her life and wasnt nothing wrong with that and even on that situation didnt meant she was gonna get pregnant and if she did WELL ABORTION IS NOT A SIN and omg....OMG BESTIES she acted like ive told her to kill herself like she told me that basically she couldnt tell us ANYTHING because we always judge her and she is from a different generation and we had no patience with her and AGAIN i try to really be careful with my words and told her that I KNEW and that she sometimes needed to also be more flexible and try to change her mind, be nicer about what she says and i told her that she in the past has told me and my sister terrible things and she doesnt even realize and thats fucked up but whatever AND SHE SNAPPED AGAIN lol she told me that nowadays she couldnt say anything and we were immature for talking things so PERSONALLY and that we needed to GROW UP AND MOVE ON 💀💀💀 she kept talking but at this point i was like about to cry and scream so i just looked at her and she told me "AND DONT LOOK AT ME LIKE THAT MICHEL (she never calls me that 💀)" so all i did was to get up and leave because i KNOW i was gonna snap and i didnt wanna be mean, i'm letting out lots of things but i was never MEAN or yelled at her. anyways ive been avoiding her the last days because honestly i'm mad she is asking for respect but she has never given me respect, and i'm so mad about what she thinks about my sister and what she probably thinks about me like we are her daughters!!! but she has been acting like that whole conversation never happened and now she came and told "so you are gonna keep being mad and ignoring me? 😐 para ni hablarte" BDJDDK WHATTTTTT TELL ME IM CRAZY like it's my fault????!!! i just told her that she could interpret my silence as she wanted, but tell me seriously AM I THE BAD GUY HERE??!!! i don't think it's big of a deal but i'm tired of she treating me like what i think don't matter when i have lot of respect with her 😭😭😭😭

#like ive never NEVER been a bad daughter with her and it makes me furious she doesnt even stop to think about what she says #whatever dont read all of this like lol i just needed to let it out zjdhdk