#i wannt so much and i jnow what i need to do but i just cant get myself to do it

[louisarmpits]

I hate feeling this lonely

#lonely unlovable even unlikeable really aldjaldi #like i do it to myself i know i do i push peopel away and its so hard for me to just make connectionswith people #and I’m so insecure i just don’t believe it if (massive if) someone says they like me #like as friends or more its just so hard for me to believe it #i hate that i have like 1 friend and she has her own life and i feel like shes moving on from me and like thats fair go live your best life #but it sucks that her best life doesnt include me #and i just want a best friend ive never had a best friend #I’m all over the place with my feelings #i wannt so much and i jnow what i need to do but i just cant get myself to do it #i keep making excuses but theres no excuses #like why cant things just come easy to me #why cant i just be normal #why cant i just have conversations with peoole #people #why do i let my insecurities get in the way of literally everything #why am i like this #why cant i just do what i want #why why why