#i was even upstairs and the memory of the blood soaked pee pads she used popped into my head so vividly

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#it’s coming up on a year since domino died #and it’s really hitting me and it’s throwing me into a depressive episode #i was even upstairs and the memory of the blood soaked pee pads she used popped into my head so vividly #and i can’t keep relying on my friends #how do you ask the person you’re already leaning on for help? #but i can tell i’m just gonna be. in bed all week #i’ve been in bed for the last three days and i couldn’t figure out why i couldn’t get myself to do anything despite feeling relatively fine #and then i realized #and then once i realized the sad started kicking in #so anyway #if ur my friend i’m sorry i’m gonna be shitty for a while #i’m rlly tired of having to talk through every emotion i have with my friends tho #but if i’m sad about this it’s gonna be the only thing i can think to talk about #idk i feel weird rn #personal #forest talks