#i wna get back into really reading again . n i need to manage my time so much better

[noxtivagus]

I FEEL SM BETTER AGAIN

#🌙.rambles #IM ACTUALLY SO EXCITED TO WAKE UP LATER #nothing particular special #but i'm getting back to my normal self again yayy #i'm gna listen to the voiced lines from #YK MR JEREMY ANG JONES ! WHO VOICES MY OTHER FAV CHARA IN THE CRITICALLY ACCLAIMED MMORPG #hermes my beloved 🥺 he's my darling he deserves the world ( and a long warm hug ) #MY INSPIRATION TOO WAH SO MUCH TO WRITE AND IMAGINE #i wna read more poetry!!!! n books again #N WRITE MY OWN TOO i wna work on more original stuff AND also. yk yk again. cringe #i'll play more ffxiv tmrrw n mess around with ahem yes #SPEND TIME W MY FAMILY ! the four of us are my favorite people in the world #yes of course i am one of my most favorite people. self-love ✨ #n do school work too ! i'm motivated once more actually #i'm still coughing n it's nearly 5 am oh no i got distracted for 2 hours so i really need to sleep soon but #it's such a relief to feel this way again #ngl i'm still going to probably be rather distant situationally #i need to work on consistency wah managing my energy is so wack #>.> my motivation n inspiration n all of that is getting back #i'm excited to do a lot tmrrw #even if i don't do a lot then i'll be kind n patient w myself ! yeah ! #yk i spent most of the day then in empyreum in game #housing area for ishgard so #the music uwah 🫶🏼 #i'll look at my notes again too later today #a lot i wna do huh ! one at a time 🤍

[noxtivagus]

ffxiv brainrot...... wait 🥹

#🌙.rambles #cute wol dynamics i wna write more abt that thing i wrote way back #thinking abt it gets me a bit flustered wtf but it's still cute until now #i got chills thinking about what i'd write for Zero my beloved #cringe but free is my life. yes. yes ! #the way i wrote the dynamic for haurchefant was so sad iirc #aymeric's was sweet n romantic #alphi's was . cute n shy. young ppl in love r so cute sob #oh god ffxiv brings me back to being like this yes . back to last year 🤍 #i shld be productive but oh cmon that can wait #help there's so much i have to do i will. Explode #i wna get back into really reading again . n i need to manage my time so much better #FUCK NEW PATCH TMRRW N I HAVENT FINISHED MANDERVILLE I WILL CRY #no it's Fine haha i can. do it. at my own pace. sob. 😭😭 #my mind is racing n i know rn this is just adding to me procrastinating #i shld get it all done but i don't want to.... #sob no i said i'll push myself further starting this month. idc if it makes me incomfortable. sobbb #🥹 i'm gna go insane ! i stress myself out more by overthinking than anything else ffs #i really need to stop procrastinating. that's the problem i've developed over time #wait i'm getting off topic wait i wna ramble abt ffxiv 😭 but. wait no i cant do this while stressing out over sm things #my stomache n head aches wait holy shit i'm feeling anxious n overwhelmed there you go #stressed by the things i have to do. by the standards i've set for myself. expectations n responsibilities #first i need to prioritize these assignments. finish them then i'll eat lunch. huh. maybe i shld fix that wait oh no i haven't ate het #then . then what. wait there's so much to do oh no but i really need to look st the next step first. the rest can come after #i need to be better if i wna get far in life n really improve myself n do all that i want #each step matters. every moment. i need to be better. help maybe i'm pushing myself too hard but god it's not enough. it's still not enough #maybe the time pressure is even harsher rn bcs wooo i'm gna be older soon #i'm aware that it definitely feels like i'm growing older too quickly but. life's long. n i think i'll wlways be young at heart #with as young as i am i am proud of myself for already having a basic grasp of who j am n what i want. it'll develop even more in time #life's a journey. i shldn't be so hard on myself. BUT RN ITS SO HARD WAITTT BUT I CAN HANDLE THIS FUCK YEAH 😭🥹