#i’m trying not to be overly negative or garner sympathy from people (please don’t do that oh my god)

[aeriona]

Dkfmkeels I have a weird relationship with my writing, I gotta explain this in detail so I can understand myself better, long text post you’ve been warned

I loooove reading in general (both fiction and non-fiction) and the idea of writing appeals to me greatly! I’ve got so many stories all tangled up in my head and I so badly want to pull them all out and straighten them on a page, the the weird problem is that I really don’t enjoy the writing process?

It sounds fun in concept, especially with that Four Swords AU I’ve got, having that down as like a 40,000+ word fic on AO3 would be an absolute dream-come-true for me. And i’ve written little bits of that! Or at least i’ve tried haha

It’s just really difficult (and frustrating!) for me to take my thoughts and put them on a page in a way that makes sense for someone to read, also writing drafts makes me want to commit a hate crime because making a rough/preliminary version of literally anything feels like pulling teeth most of the time haha. I just want to write it in one go and have it be good, but i know that’s definitely not how writing works lmao

I’ve written like two pages of it, but merely thinking about the document itself makes me want to burn it because i hate it so much, and the weird thing is I genuinely have no idea why i hate it so much it’s just words lol. Maybe because the idea of having the weird niche stories within my head spilled onto a document just reminds me of how cringe I am?

There’s probably sites online or something (gotta to look into that), my interests mostly fall into science and art and no writing, but I’d absolutely love to get my story down for you guys to enjoy! It feels suffocating to have it all within my head and in a few vague artworks, i need it down in its entirety, if i even have that finalised yet lol.

to anyone who read all of that, you are really cool and I am fond of you for listening to my problems :) All this stuff isn’t that massive of a deal to me, but i’d like to contribute more to the four swords community than just art and I need to start somewhere lmao.

Okay rant over that’s all, thank you!

#rant #four swords #four swords manga #I’m just tired lmao #And i recently remembered that i can post text and not art on occasion lol #i’m trying not to be overly negative or garner sympathy from people (please don’t do that oh my god) #I’m just trying to explain this to both my followers and to myself because i only recently figured out this was a problem haha