#i'm just so... not shy about talking about some of my plots lmfao and believe it or not: this is actually spoiler free!

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All your ask game files look super interesting, but what can you tell us about #6?

i am doing fucking backflips rn, i am so excited someone asked about this one. stay with me for a sec, ok? because i can tell you LOTS about #6, long post below the cut.

#6, titled The Cadwallader Collection, takes place August 12th, 2018, and is told from the third person perspective of a human Baz in a non-magical world, wherein there is no Watford.

Baz is home with his family in Hampshire for the summer, and normally he spends this day alone, sleeping most of it away before going to her grave in the evening to leave her flowers. this 12th, however, there is a tentative knock at his door before breakfast. Daphne tells him a new art exhibition has opened in London and invites him to go see it with her, just the two of them. The Cadwallader Collection, she calls it. Baz knows she knows what day it is... but instead of being put off, he appreciates her effort.

and so they go to the exhibition together. the interior of the gallery is bland and white and full of large, strange paintings with thick golden frames that even he finds gaudy. Daphne has stopped to talk to the woman behind the desk for a moment, but she urges Baz to go and start looking around at the exhibits, she'll catch up with him in a moment, and they're... all right? kind of odd and creepy, he thinks. Baz wanders deeper and deeper into the strange, maze-like gallery and comes across a painting of a large, empty room. stone walls and stone floors and a high ceiling, a wide double window. a silhouette is standing against it. he reads the name of the painting: "Mummers House," outloud, because nobody else is around. then, the lights go out.

Baz tries to find Daphne but... the whole gallery is empty, everyone is gone. he makes it back to the reception area, but when he tries the main doors, they're locked, so he turns back to see if he can find an emergency exit instead, and as he does, he steps into a puddle of blue paint. there is a trail of it on the floor, like someone was dripping paint from their hands as they walked by. it splatters down the carpet, leading all the way to one of Cadwallader's oldest displays, a painting so massive it is stretched out across the floor instead of on the wall. the velvet rope that usually hangs around it to keep people a safe distance away has been unhooked on one side, and the paint leads right to it... Baz steps closer to try and read the name of the painting in the dark. "The World of Mages."

something strikes his back, then everything goes dark.

when he wakes up, he is in a hallway made of stone and dust and dirt and bone. with no other choice, he starts walking, and soon comes to a small room, the placard beside the door calls it "Le Tombeau des Enfants". inside, the walls are nothing but rows of skulls, and there is a single child-sized coffin in the centre with a small, glass vase on top of it, holding a single red rose with ten petals...

... LOL, SO—IF YOU'RE STILL WITH ME, this is actually the beginning of one of my all time favourite games, a free RPG Maker horror/puzzle adventure game called Ib (イヴ), released back in 2012!!!

that's why i don't feel shy sharing all this, because the fanfic actually follows the first few minutes of the game beat for beat until the moment Baz picks up the rose, at which point the stories diverge from each other. fun fact: including this fic, i have written three Ib crossover AUs.

here are some images i nabbed off the fandom wiki of the Guertena art gallery! 🌹

#ask game #blackberrysummerblog #i am so sorry for all this LOL #i really went off the rails with this one #i'm just so... not shy about talking about some of my plots lmfao and believe it or not: this is actually spoiler free! #idk that i'd ever post this fic though? just 'cause who tf is gonna be reading this other than me 💀 #this is hands down one of THE most self indulgent fics in my drafts #that said: thank you so kindly for asking about this one 💃

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im sorry but that last anon message u answered that said “i thinks it’s okay to deliver my feedback” and managed to shit on what you wrote, saying what is and isn’t necessary, how they would like it done, etc etc…… literally what the fuck??? it’s your fic?? you write it however tf you want to, portray the characters and their relationships in whichever way you’d like and that anon can kindly suck my ass ohmygod. i dont know how you answered so kindly to that???? unless im missing something and you know that person and asked for their feedback… im sorry im just so baffled at this. you put out all this amazing work for FREE and you get these mfs talking abt how it should be done??? on your own blog???? bro.

ahahahahah 😭😭😭😭😭

I think since I've been talking about the musical actor fic for a while now and saying what scenes it will have and how the vibe will be etc, people started to have specific expectations of it 😭

we all know what kind of person I am and how I write yn and how I usually write doyoung etc. it's enemies and drama and hot scenes etc. this time, I know people wanted a sweet doyoung and a shy/cute yn for a change and believe me or not, I actually tried SO HARD to make yn the way she is in this fic ahahahah 😭😭😭 that's a shy and cute yn for me!! doyoung comes off cocky in act 1, and that's true, but I promise he changes! this is just 10k out of 50k. we agreed to make it come out in chunks for tumblr to digest it better.

literature for me is about this too. characters having arcs, plotwists, starting one way and ending another way. I definitely understand now what anon wanted to read about but it would have been a flat plot if it starts this way and end that way and it's just like that for 50k,,,,,and I know many of you maybe expect simple smut fics or fluff fics and I keep bombarding you with subplots and whatnot 😭😭😭😭 but writing has to be fun for me too and I enjoy complicated fics more

I haven't been on here much lately and compared to last year I haven't written much. each day I'm close to deleting this blog and leave and especially in moments like these that I ask myself what the point even is. writing is such a big passion of mine and I actually enjoy writing fics but it's hard too. I know some of you might say "well if you don't want people to comment then don't post them", but I only ask for a bit of empathy, that's all. behind a screen there's still another person working hard to meet your needs and make you happy. because it's easy to say that writes should write for themselves first then others, and it's true, not all creatives, singer, dancer, painter and whatever, likes to share their work with others. life is shitty and it makes me feel good to know you can unwind a bit from all of that by reading a thirsty doyoung story. I enjoy honest comments a lot! you can come here and here "lmfao bestie this fic is not my taste and idk why I even read this but I can see you worked hard on it so I appreciate it anyways", that's all

I'm genuinely sad that the new fic is disappointing for that anon because I worked hard on it and was excited to share it. I will try to write something else maybe for the anniversary requests! but honestly it would have been nice to have received a bit of appreciation for whatever I came up with, even if it felt disappointing or not your taste

#all of this being said #I promise you the rest of the fic is sweeter and fluffier! #plot is all centered around doyoung and yn being a couple #also you thank you anon for this supportive ask #I really needed this ❤️