#i'm uh using data rn i shldn't be using any sort of wifi at all but :<<

[noxtivagus]

i shld rlly go to sleep 😭😭

#🌙.rambles #i'm uh using data rn i shldn't be using any sort of wifi at all but :<< #anxiety.. i think #i have to wake up in around 3 hours #i shld rlly sleep but #i'm so #yk what i'll finish writing that by dec. 7 #since i started writing dec. 8 #i haven't wrote anything in that thing for like several weeks now ( at least 2 i think ) #the thought of starting again n writing smth just feels so daunting #my head aches #i'm sorry i didn't mean to ramble but #it's just been bothering me.. #maybe i've gotten. too harsh when it comes to #i'm too afraid to forget you see #so i write like i'm running out of time. i take note of songs i listen to in a day n things i do #maybe a bit too much sometimes but it keeps me rather sane #weekends r too short :c it's monday again n. School #i don't have much due this week but i do have to work a lot on the rrl & our thematic analysis coding stuff yk prac res things #i know i'll manage but i rlly just want to rest #i really just want to go outside lay down on the grass look up at the starry sky n gaze at the moon #forget my worries for a while. n maybe i can imagine of other worlds. of fiction. or of stories in the future that'll never be mine #but i can at least dream yeah? #time's ticking i shld really sleep maybe i can set aside writing to myself later instead. tomorrow #too little time to do anything really. perhaps i shld just sleep my worries away #:<< i'll be fine it's been like this for a while now but i'm managing. the burden is heavy #it's so so heavy.. memories n then the future n words to read n write. things to do n achieve #one day i wish i cld really just finally allow myself once more to be able to ultimately. yk indulge in wtvr i want #may one day the world grant me that kindness #that. one wish. or maybe two or dozens. or 23