#idk please g-d dont let me fall down an isolationist pit x.x

[aurazoo]

turns out having all your friends abandon you and be mean to you after coming out uh.... takes a while to get over......

#i feel like i am bad at friendships that dont require near daily in person interaction and i reallllllly dont wanna ba #i feel kinda afraid that im annoying which like #maybe i am a bit and i know that shouldnt stop me and its okay to be a little annoying or weird when trying to start a new friendship #idk please g-d dont let me fall down an isolationist pit x.x #i dont think i will but like #and texting is soooooo hard like #do i just constantly update about my day like there is no flow or it feels artificial like i have to try superrrrrr hard to keep a convo #but irl i can go for hours and hours and hours #problem number two is that i am absolutely reallllllly bad at asking people to hang out my brain is always like #if they wanna hang theyll ask and like maybe sometimes!! but i wanna hang and im not asking so whats up!!!! #anyway sorry long rant with no resolution